A Little Something

Everything?

2012-01-18T01:15:00.006+08:00

It's a little late to announce, but I am still determined to say that I'm finally on a semester break. It is quite short, just a quick 3 weeks. Coming in terms of that, I have to really appreciate this rest since I badly need it. Whatnot after all the drama in a drama, ups and downs, exams and late night stay ups and early morning get ups.

Well, in every semester there will always be a lesson learned. Always, and always value your friendship. There should never be a time where a person should neglect his friend, especially in worse times. A friend is a shoulder to lean on, a pillar to hold on, a strength to pull on. And I am very glad to say that my friends are always there for me, despite whatever came up. Well, you know who you are and I love you for being there for me.

There's one thing that I hate though. I hate it when people hide away their knowledge from their close friends. I really don't understand where is the fun in there. To me, when there is a tough subject out there, what you can do to maximize your understanding is to do a study group. And trust me, it works out great.

Next, I have learned that what makes you weak makes you stronger. And swearing at people( not as in joking, but in a serious situation and you really mean it) doesn't make things solve itself, it makes my image looks bad, but it definitely makes me feel better! Okay joking. I think. I have broken down a lot of times this semester, I cried my eyes out until I feel like I'm about to collapse. I hate to admit that I am weak, but I am proud to admit that I bounced back. Well, with my mates as well <3

Oh and as a conclusion, a few days before our final exam, Dayang, Salwa and me were walking and laughing our heads off over a biawak. Scene ni tengah jalan naik tangga hs ke arah parking motor. Tengah dok gelak-gelak tibe-tibe tengok orang sebelah dah xda, tengah bersujud kat lantai. Masih mood gelak-gelak lagi, so tanya kenapa? Dia kata sakit..so offer la dia tempat duduk, tapi dia lambat sangat so last-last sendiri duduk. Last-last kitorang papah dia sampai dorm dan call macam-macam pertolongan. Heee sudanhya, dia tersalah urat, ke sendi? dan kini menerima rawatan selanjutnya secara tradisional :) Hello salwi :D

Life is a Drama :)

2011-12-18T20:03:00.000+08:00

So, finally drama in a drama is over. And I want to thank those people who said this to me for support:

" You can do it, I know you can do it"
"Maggie jangan nangis, nanti aku nangis sekali"
"Mana Maggie yang aku kenal? Mana Maggie yang gila-gila tu?"
"Maggie please jangan nangis..aku tak taw macam mana nak pujuk..please"
"Korang mintak je, kitorang nanti tolong"
"Aku jadi batang pokok, aku jadi batang pokok"
"Maggie, istighfar..Astaghfirullahalazim.."
"Aku stay untuk korang, betapa supportnye aku"
"Ala chill je, kitorang semua ada"
"Apa-apa pun, we're a team. Jom buat usrah"

You know who you guys are. I love all of you, and thanks for all the back breaking support. Terharu :')

And here are some pictures from the drama staging:

The end :)

Quickie.

2011-11-03T22:52:00.000+08:00

I am home, and it feels great! I am done with my exams, but one which is Drama and exactly after the mid break. Yeap, mid break. I am now on a one week leave.

And basically I am done with my Sciences of Quran assignment which is already submitted, Mass Comm which I only need to print out and I am done, and Drama's creative interpretation. And I have already recited all the surahs to my Ustaz which is such a complete relief.

Although I am not happy with my exams, though. Sciences of Quran? Bolehla. Mass Comm? Alhamdulillah bolehla. Arab? Agak hancur lah. Phonetics? Tak payah cakapla -.-

Bzzzzzz?

2011-10-15T23:43:00.002+08:00

Just a quick update. Such a busy busy schedule coming up. My to-do list is as below:

complete my assignment for Science of Quran by this Friday
complete my assignment for Mass Com by this Friday
complete my assignment for Study Circle
complete my assignment for Drama by this week
Arabic quiz on this Thursday
memorizing the remaining surah(s) for Tilawah by this Thursday
memorizing Surah Al- Mukminun 1-13, and 1 doa for Study Circle by this Saturday
start revising for the upcoming exams

Whew. So far, I think that is all. For now in my head. Hopefully, I can handle all with great strength and willpower. And intelligence! Oh and I am thinking of joining the SNECU classes in UIA. I saw the flyers today. SNECU classes are for those who feel they are weak in Arabic language or English language. Which everyone knows I suck in Arabic language!

Oh, and it is odd that those people that I used to see last semester, like everyday, because we will always cross paths, are now the people that I now rarely see. I mean, I think I only saw them like once or twice je this semester. This is sad. Sigh. All the best.

Patah tumbuh, hilang berganti?

2011-09-23T22:24:00.000+08:00

Alright. If you read my last post, you now know that my schedule sucks despite numerous attempts to save it. I remember saying kalau dah namanya tak ade rezeki or something similar. Well, now I am saying, ada hikmah disebaliknya.

I went to my MassCom class the other day at 10am since we were all not informed whether it will be at 10am or at 5pm as what the previous lecturer had told us. I said previous because, surprise surprise, a male suddenly came into our class and asked if this is Section 7. We said, yes. Turns out he is our new lecturer, Br. Ayub. I definitely like the new guy because he is young, I mean super young compared to Sir Abdul Halim. He is currently doing his PHD in Uia, and he gives a clear and simple lecture. Great examples. Yeay!

As for my Drama class, the lecturer is also a part-timer. She's great too, and our class is so small. Comprising of only 13 students, so we are all in one team :)

P/s: the other day kena kejar with anjing, and this week kena kejar dengan lebah sesat in the shower -.-

Kalau dah tak ada rezeki

2011-09-16T22:03:00.000+08:00

My first week in Gombak. One word. Hectic. Let me explain. I had accidentally dropped my place in Drama class. So I had to re-register. Well, only two sections were open. I tried for the 2nd section. Now, the lecturer stated was Kak Mei. I badly wanted her to teach because it is a well known fact that she is one hell of a great lecturer. So we went to her class (us without a place) and asked her to sign our Adjustment Forms. She signed them and said that she will take care of everything, you know, sending them to the department for approval.

The next day, we suddenly saw a notice saying that a new section is opened, and it starts from 5-8 pm on Mondays. We were all worried since nobody wants to go to a night class, right? Sad to say, section 2 is closed and we are added into the 3rd section. And another lecturer instead will be teaching us, a part-timer. Damn. But she is said to specialise in wardrobe costumes and theatre. So hopefully, it will be all good. Amin.

Next, Mass Comm. Again, with the no place in the class thing. So, we filled in our forms to give to the lecturer. I specifically picked the class because of the lecturer, Pn. Mazni and the timing. 10-11.20 am. Great, right? Our forms even got approved by the department.
However, the next class, a man came into our class. He said that he will be our new lecturer instead of Pn. Mazni. Double damn. And then, he said he needs to change the class time to 5-6.20pm or 8-11pm. Triple damn :(

For CCT, the lecturer refused to sign our forms because she said that she only accepts final year students. I rushed to the nearby photocopy shop and grabbed 2 sheets of Adjustment Forms and went to IRK building for another lecturer to sign. A quadruple damn, because she wasn't in and we were in our last hour of Add/ Drop session. So yeah. When I threw away the form , I said, maka terbuanglah harapan kita sekali.

Despite all that, I managed to have a great time with my friends. Even celebrated for a surprise party for Aisya in the middle of the night, even got chased by a dog -.- So yeah, I'll get used to it. I love UIA anyhow :)

With my super crazy friends :D

Instant act.

2011-09-07T13:47:00.000+08:00

So I woke up yesterday morning with a call. I did not remember hearing any ringing, but suddenly I was looking at my screen with some letters for a name calling me. I picked it up and heard a guy's voice.

Me: Hello.. *sleepy voice*

Guy: Maggie, you tido ke?

Me: No no, I dah bangun. Jap, ni Keder ke?

Guy: Yeah yeah. Takpelah, you tido balik.

Me: Eh why? Jap kenapa?

Guy: You kata semalam nak ikut beraya. I thought nak datang rumah you then we go to Iwa's. I kat Dengkil ni.

Me: Omg serious! *melompat dari katil* I siap sekarang!

So.. yeah. I managed to take a bath, and then he and his friend, Akmal showed up. So I invited them in with my un-powder-ed face, and proceeded to get ready. After all the cookies and chit chat with my parents, off we go to Iwa's at Denai Alam.

Sampai-sampai je nampak Nadiah Khairi. This would be my 3rd time of seeing her this week! Oh and we ate chicken rice, too. And kuih bunga dahlia. Haha.

Great times of catching up :) Love you guys.

Nadiah, me, and Keder :)

Book Review: Eat Pray Love.

2011-08-09T23:30:00.000+08:00

So a cousin of mine gave me a book. Well, it's Eat Pray Love from Liz Gilbert.

The original cover

The cover of mine.

The author wrote it based on her experiences. Of how she has everything, a husband, a career, a newly bought house. But what she didn't want : children. From there, everything sprawled away, her gaps and fights with her ~~husband~~ and how she slept on the bathroom floor to calm herself. Believe me, I am an avid reader. I will usually try my very very best to finish a book/ novel in one day. I don't speed, but I immerse myself in it. I don't mind skipping meals as long as I get to finish whatever I am reading.

Man, this book took me weeks! The first part where she was in Italy, was okay. I have to admire the way she describes every detail with a detail. You could basically imagine the scenes and surroundings because she describes everything. It was a slightly draggy, but never mind, I tried to continue.

The middle part, the one where she was in India, I have to say is the part that I procrastinate the most. Too draggy. It seems as if she's repeating herself again and again and again. Oh wait, the book is basically about her, so I find it boring, too self-centred and self-focused on.

The last part where she was in Bali is written in a much better way. She gives an insight of the cultures, and the people and their ways, and her ways around their ways.

In conclusion, I do not recommend this book. I am only 20 years old, so probably I am not the best age to read this though.

I repeat, it is super draggy.

Oh, and here's the snippet that everyone's been reblogging on their Tumblr and stuffs saying it's so sweet blablabla. Well, it was actually what she wrote to herself in her diary. To motivate herself.

See, I told you she can give a detail with a detail.

Random Mumble.

2011-07-06T19:20:00.000+08:00

We decided to go to Sunway yesterday. As usual, me with my last minute preparations rushed to get ready, although I already knew that he will be coming at 1030 am. Managed to clean up the house, and while I was rushing to get into the shower, my phone rang. Irritated, I stepped out of the toilet again and grab my phone. An unknown number. I picked up. Some guy was asking whether he could speak to me, along with some mumbling and rambling. I wanted to reject the call since I feel it was such a waste of time, but something he said made my ears perked up. ".....Sunway Management Team..." It was Jijol! Jijol you made me late -.-

Anyway, we did meet each other. Suddenly I miss UIA because we can meet friends everyday and hang out, not here at home with everyone working and I'm stuck at home stranded because I am not trusted with the car. I don't trust myself with the car either. Too bad when we had the meet up, no pictures were taken. Sigh. It could have been a nice picture, me with my newly trimmed hair... ermmm -.-

Womanly pain.

2011-07-01T18:37:00.000+08:00

It kinda bugs me at how painful periods can be to some women, and how easy their life is even with period. For me, it's like the dreaded time of the month. Probably for my boyfriend and my friends, too.

Let me explain.

It's a combination of rolling about in bed with pain, cold sweat, feel like fainting, tired, dizzy, feel like the world is gonna collapse and probably the most irritating thing in mind, constant vomiting etc. I think I have one of those severe types of period pain. Definitely bothering when I used to have it every month during high school. Thank god, now it's reduced.

Well, nothing helps. What I usually do is cry on the phone complaining about the pain, hiding under the duvet and constantly twisting, and I need something warm for my tummy. I have tried Panadol's, the pink one, well, it didn't work. So I had also tried Ponstan and Ibuprofen. I tried hot water bottle for soothing, even the laptop due to its hot base. I tried avoiding dairy products, cold drinks and gassy beverages. Drinking hot Milo everytime it hurts. Switch off the aircond and the fan for more warmth.
Then again, basically the main cure; sleep. Yeap, sleep is the best medicine for period pain.

I bet my doctor is shaking his head " No no" because the last time I went to his clinic, he said I should get married. Haa now I have a great excuse on why I should get married.

Here's the reason why.

2011-05-28T00:05:00.000+08:00

It's my 2nd semester in IIUM Gombak, or also known as UIA. My second semester as a BEN student, which stands for Bachelor of English. No more a student of ENMS, which stands for Economics and Management Sciences for two semesters. And people I meet still ask why do I switch courses. Why didn't I switch while I was doing my foundation? It's definitely harder to do a completely new course without the basics. And here I am, jumping straight into an unknown depth of faith.

Truth is, I still am finding the reasons from within myself. Why do I switch and why now? When I was in foundation, I was really excited to do Economics. It has great job prospects, and stuffs like that. But then again, I struggled. I was staggering through my subjects, I found myself studying without fully understanding it. I was always with my phone, texting people to ask questions I should know, calling people to ask for better understanding.

I managed to drag myself to finish it in a year and a half.

It was supposed to be a year.

But I got caught up. Only my close friends knew. I still vividly remember, when a lecturer informed me that there was no way that I can finish up my studies in a year, right after I went out the office door, I hung my head low, cupped my hands to my face and cried. Right in front of my male friend. And then my female friend came along, and I hugged her so tight I feel as though I am strangling her, but I need to hold on her for support, for my world has crashed.I cried for a brief moment though, for we all had a class to attend to. And I'm assigned to do a presentation. Halfway through the presentation, my eyes watered up, my throat feels as though there was a big lump, but I managed to compose myself, as my friends were smiling and supporting me. That was the day I know, we will all still be friends no matter what happened. On the last day of the year, many was wishing me "Goodluck, see you in Gombak next sem!".

They thought I was joining them.

I wasn't.

When my close friends told me goodbye, I hugged them all and didn't cry. Except for one. We cried and didn't speak a word to each other. I hugged her tight, I was afraid that letting go of it was a significant sign that everything will be over for me. I was afraid of the future.

However, fate has other plans for me. I managed to end my foundation as a ENMS student. And I started my new beginning as a BEN student. It took me some time to get through it, but eventually I did, thanks to my very understanding lecturers and supportive mates.
I've always thought that I wouldn't be associated to ENMS anymore. Well, for my term paper I had to write on economic-related topics for one whole semester. This semester, my Arabic class is situated in the Economics faculty. And just today, my roommate asked me about accruals.

So much for running away. Maybe I shouldn't. Maybe it's a way that God wants to show, it will always be a part of my life, no matter how small it is. I still miss my old course, of course I do, those pesky numbers. I still keep my calculator :)

I think I'll stick to my path now. It's not those kind of "road not taken" moment. It's I took one, decided it wasn't good for me, and diverted my path. And I'm glad I did. I regret myself for regretting. Those times were great, but now it's wonderful.

Rant

2011-04-22T02:21:00.000+08:00

Seeing the teenagers right now, it is kinda scary. Seeing how they are dressed, how they carry themselves. How they socialize. I'm thinking, 20 years from now on, how will teenagers in that era will be? I admit, I am not those pious people. I have a socialized circle, open-minded thinking. My friends smoke. He smokes, too. Typical. Maybe it's easier to see other people's fault then your own.

Hukum karma.

2011-03-28T18:18:00.001+08:00

Have you ever felt that no matter what you do, people don't appreciate your efforts? And they didn't even try to listen. Sigh. Well that is life. You need to be selfish. You need to be dominant. Bak kata what I said to Ajijol Kamarujaman, sometimes we need to step over some toes to get to the top. When things go wrong, especially in group assignments, you just need to POINT IT OUT. Because those little minor things that may hurt their feelings, will hurt your marks.

Sometimes I just don't understand why people can't take criticism. Or comments or opinions. Yes, you are allowed to stand by your decision or point of view, but can't you listen for a while? Being selfish tak best lah pulak. If nak jadi selfish or fussy, at least make it good. At least make it something that people can look up upon, not look down to. We live in a cycle, what goes around comes around. What goes up must come down. Ha, macam lagu Justin Timberlake pulak. But it's true la. Hukum karma namanya.

Okay emo post. Still.

Lies.

2011-03-13T14:48:00.000+08:00

It's been a crappy long while since I've last updated my blog. Sheesh. Well, now that I'm back, I'm gonna rant.

It is a well-known fact that materialistic people are not a favourite among us, especially to guys. But then again , there is a difference between someone who loves someone because of the materials they get, and someone who simply loves materials. Tipulah kalau kau kata tak suka barang. Sape tak suke diberi barang kan? Paling tipu kalau girls kate tak suka kebendaan -.-

Girls lie too when they say they don't mind if you don't have money. Once in a while is okay, BUT if it is almost every time, and we still say we don't mind, that is a lie. Kadang-kadang nak jugak dibelanja makan and wayang, or something similar.

When we say we want/like something, that's a hint.

And yes, we lied too when we said we don't mind you cancelling our dates. Or birthdays. Or when you don't get us presents.

Great lies, but nothing beats "I'm fine" , right?

Because its you

2011-02-19T23:30:00.000+08:00

This picture is one of my favorites.

I like how it shows the same way we both smile.

Dua-dua sepet and gigi bekas braces.

I love you.

I miss you :(

Rant.

2011-02-04T15:50:00.000+08:00

Crap.
It is February already?
And I felt that taaruf in December was just ~~a few days away.~~
And now we're having mid-term?
And finals starting at the end of March?
Time flies, really fast :/
I've made new friends, real friends, true friends.
And I am truly glad that I have them.

Not exactly magic.

2011-01-29T23:59:00.000+08:00

I don't know what's the matter with me. Probably one of those transition process. Probably because I've heard a lot of wonderful news from people telling me the magic of Gombak. And because of that, I had high expectations. Now I'm agreeing to Jijol somehow.
I miss Nilai. Like, really really do. The place itself hold memories for me. And those times I had there was amazing. Here are a list of them:

bangun 15mins before class pun sempat lagi pergi kelas without being late. siap boleh beli susu dutch lady kat mak cik
kirim pesan kat dormmate belikan food due to laziness
late night snacking (ex: kiosk, burger)
staying up late with friends watching movies although quizzes and exams besok or sth
heart-to-heart talks
squatting
the proud feeling bila lepas pak/mak guard
nasi lemak depan convenience
usually after a class, me and my classmates will rush and compete with each other to reach the next class, because nobody wants to sit at the front
the kirim-kirim session while waiting for class to start. someone will go the kiosk (usually a female) and the rest of the class (including boys) will pass money and orders. nak susu dutch lady chocolate lah, strawberry lah, coffee lah. lipton tea lah. ice lemon tea lah. cucuk2 dekat makcik lah. cucuk2 nak yang ikan lah ape. or the guys usually will request for nuggets or hot dogs. and ada nak sos, taknak sos, sos sikit, sos banyak -.- demand eh. and I will always be the victim.
walking all the way to block b for the ice cream and waffles and nasi ayam kawah thai
talking while bathing, and bath dates
gossiping in class and still able to answer the questions
last minute studying
walking to mcd or giant with friends and somehow the journey gets shorter
mcd breakfasttttt :D
complaining the weather is hot or the roof bocor sebab hujan -.-
lunch everywhere with everyone
and nobody will ever forget need the displaying of matric card
and the ever loving compounds :D

See those are just few reasons that I mentioned. Banyak lagi actually. Even my roommates are not as friendly in Nilai. And I am Aimi to them, not Maggie.I really miss Nilai, and Gombak is just..different :(

...

2011-01-26T19:41:00.000+08:00

I'm lacking of updates.

I went up a hill that overlooks UIA in my baju kurung.

I hiked up a hill that overlooks Gombak in my jeans.

I joined the IIUM Theatre Club.

I went out of the club.

I joined CELPAD Got Talent representing BM Division under acting. We got 3rd. Out of four -.-

I was involved in a misunderstanding matter.

I'm learning to have quickie breakfast everyday.

I got my matric card which actually looked nice except that I look bloated.

I went to Vietnam and got mistaken as a Vietnamese. A lot of times.

Bye 2010 :D

2010-12-30T18:45:00.000+08:00

I am gonna miss 2010.
It marks the ending of my CFS days, and the beginning of degree.
I had tremendous setbacks, but hey, those setbacks actually helped me in pushing me forward :)
It also marks a year of me and him. The future remains a mystery, but we are making the most of the present times. Hopefully, more happy years to come for both of us, amin :)
Besides that, it serves as a great reminder for me that I have GREAT GREAT friends :D
You guys were with me, through thick and thin, you know who you are, SJ friends and UIA friends. I love all of you, and appreciate those time we had. And hopefully we will have good times together forever and ever sampai ada anak cucu cicit semua :D

It's like we're chasing all those stars

2010-12-26T01:10:00.000+08:00

Two days ago, when I was at the brink, a great friend of mine said to me :

I don't believe in BEN, but I believe in you. -the one who's name was always first to be called for attendance, and the owner of CFS matric number that everyone remembers

Either Or

2010-12-21T23:15:00.000+08:00

I don't know whether I am being a pervert or just an open-minded person. Really, my lecturers sometimes are unthinkable. For instance, my poetry lecturer was saying that different words bring different impacts. As an example, payudara and buah dada. She said that for her, payudara sounds scientific. While buah dada sounds manis, because it is buah -.- I laughed too loud at that moment.

Oh and another word from my Writing, anjakan paradigma. Oh crap. Me and my friend laughed to that word. Only the two of us. When I realised that, I immediately shut my mouth and put on a straight face. Maluuuu. I wonder if the lecturers compare notes, and they were like "ehh same la budak yang gelak" -.-

An interesting incident that happened to me today:
I told my Writing lecturer that I will be a few minutes late for his class each time due to my earlier class is situated in IRK, and it doesn't help that that class always ends later than it should. So he was like, okay give me your name. "Aimi bt Ismail." No I mean your full name. "Aimi bt Ismail". *Stares at me for a moment with that weird look * Okay my name satu je pelik ke. -.-

By the way, it just hit me. I am doing my degree. Degree in a university. I better work my ass off, for my future. No more CFS thinking.

Lost in UIA

2010-12-14T20:46:00.000+08:00

Memang tak sah if I am not lost.

Seriously, I had to leave my room at least half an hour earlier, so that I won't be late to class.

Well, for my first day, I went to class, and managed to find it. But it was canceled. So was the next class. Yeay!

But today,woah. Listen. For my Writing class, Sir Mazlan was very entertaining. Very sporting and kinda cool, really how a BEN lecturer should be. One that speaks good English with an open-minded attitude.

But what happened next was horror. We had a class in IRK, after what took us such long time to find the class, we were told it was 3rd year students, so we were given the "opportunity" to get out.

And then for the afternoon class, crap. We were lost. Completely lost. It doesn't help it was located at the 3rd floor, so we were basically going up to the 3rd floor, and then back and fro to all the crooks and corners. I think we went to all corners. And then we went down again, and went up another stairs to the 3rd floor again, and search all corners, even sesat dalam offices and don't ask me how I even got there. And someone wrote stupid directions that lead us to stupid stairs and stupid nowhere.And then we went down again, used ANOTHER stairs and up to 3rd floor AGAIN, and searched everywhere, and then-we found it!!

But, it was locked.

It was empty.

No class today.

And we searched for more than half an hour for it.

Its freaking locked.

I swear if I weren't with my friends, I would break down.

Even when I called Arishah my voice was cracking.

Sedihhhh :'(

Taaruf in Gombak

2010-12-12T15:05:00.000+08:00

Taaruf in Gombak.

Totally mentally exhausting. Talks and briefing, blablabla. You could at least give us breaks. Well, sleeping was definitely fun throughout it. Bangun je, dah habis. Yeay.

Okay, I don't feel like telling what taaruf in Gombak was all about. Enough to say, I got a 4 to a room, I'm the only junior, and yes. 5th floor.

konon muke semangat nak dengar talk.

with Dayang and Alya

mata steam bak kate syidah -.-

Alia Fada and Otong

L-R; Sarah, Shamin, Pika

Alia Fada, mase ni bergelar sudah IIUM Student

Mummy Faat :)

My compartment is on the left.

They even have drawers under the bed, ala-ala IKEA

Study table with bookshelf and drawers. Relatively new.

View from my room. Oh and I can see the sunset too :)

Okay, that's all for now. Tomorrow, a fresh new start. Hope everything goes well. Amin..

Childhood TV

2010-12-05T17:24:00.000+08:00

Currently on FB, there's this thing going on about putting a picture of cartoon from your childhood as a sign to fight against child abuse.
I was torn. I suddenly realised that my childhood consisted of a lot of cartoons. And there were shows too.

So here's a list of them, of whatever I still remember of:

The Addams Family

Sonic the Hedgehog

Felix the Cat

Pinky and The Brain

Dragonball

Dexter's Labaratory

I am Weasel. Oh and his friend is I R Baboon.

Cow and Chicken

Peanuts. The dog's name is Snoopy I think.

Little Lulu

Catdog

PowerPuff Girls

Many more I remember still. Ed, Edd and Eddy, Doraemon, Ogy and The Cockroaches, Courage the Cowardly Dog, Johnny Bravo, etc.

And some shows:

The Amanda Show

All That

Lizzie McGuire

That's So Raven

Yeah, I miss childhood.

45 minutes, really

2010-12-04T13:07:00.000+08:00

After a few months rotting at home and adding fats, the evening sky was finally clear for me to be a little productive.
Its time for cycling.
To tell you the truth, I haven't cycled for years. And years means 5 years and above. That long. Too long in such a way that I forgot how to cycle -.-
Then again, even when I was a child, I couldn't cycle well. I was quite slow at it, I used the bicycle with extra 2 little wheels on both sides, until I was about 6 or 7 years old. So, yesterday I struggled a bit. At first I couldn't mantain my balance, and then I discovered I suck at doing circles T.T
Woah, the first 10mins definitely was a killer. We decided to go up a hill, and my legs were cramping (probably kaki dah keras). And it was such a big and stoopy hill (or that's what my mind told me). After that, then everything was pleasant. The breeze was cool and blowing nicely, and we made 2 rounds around neighbourhood.
Oh oh and I can do circles already :D
Definitely want to this activity again :)
Now I feel productive.

the brother

the sister

I don't like you

2010-12-02T22:33:00.000+08:00

Everyone has their own dreams and fantasy. Everyone wants luxury. Or like I have always said, " Semua orang ada cita-cita dan angan-angan"/ " Semua orang ada impian masing-masing". But what if, those wants turn into urgent needs, and take away their dignity along.

Being a 19 years old girl, obviously I am influenced by the media promoting brands that cost a lifetime of savings, probably. But I have to stick to a budget. I admit, I do have an ~~easy~~ lifestyle, but hey, I probably won't have them if its not to my parents. I'm lucky enough that my parents can afford. That doesn't mean I get everything and anything that I want. I am given a fixed allowance, and if I want to buy some stuffs, or my money ran out, I need to work around that budget. That doesn't mean I get extra cash. Its tough, but I know this will teach me the value of money, and money doesn't grow on trees.

No, am not being boastful and proud. The point is, people need to know their budget and stick to that. Some people are less fortunate, but hey, didn't they survived? The money spent on this kind of stuff, can buy them a whole lot more essentials.

I just don't understand why some people need to show that they are better than other people. That they need to show that they also can afford like other people. So what if other people go to dinners with expensive dresses. You just get according to your budget, not trying to show to other people. And frankly, if you are borrowing other people's stuff (branded, and you were the one that requested for it) well, that doesn't make you look better, it makes you look like a fool.

And I don't understand people who brag. Why on earth are you doing that? Really, probably the person you are talking to is wealthier, only he is humble. And that definitely give him more points. And he is probably thinking what crap are you babbling. And that is embarrassing. To me, people who brag, are people who are afraid that other people don't see it.
Inferiority.

Megamind

2010-11-28T23:09:00.000+08:00

Today, after waking up around like, what, 11am for breakfast? We decided to watch a movie at CineLeisure. And man, that place was super-packed! What, all these people decided to go to CineLeisure at one go, along with us? :/

We were basically torn, either MegaMind or Rapunzel. I badly want to watch Rapunzel, because...she looks pretty -.-

Rapunzel Rapunzel, let down your hair

But the seats were full. All that's left: front seats. I mean, who ever want those seats? They're too upfront, and your neck will strain. I think my eyes will strain too, from watching on such a near screen.

So yeah, instead on that, we watched MegaMind.

And I am glad we watched that. Its funny and relaxing. And family-friendly too. :)

Oh and the lady was voiced over by Tina Fey :)

Its kinda cute too. And I laughed and "Aww" along the whole movie. And its very entertaining. In short, you should go watch it aite ;)

Anyway, I've been planning for a jog. But the evenings always rain, why oh why, how am I gonna be fit this way :(

Moving on

2010-11-22T22:40:00.000+08:00

There you have it. The offer letter finally arrived. Online obviously, but it arrived! I was so hyped. I was told that I am gonna get mine on the 26th of Nov, but that was just for the repeaters. I am now a clear pass student.

A BEN student.

No longer an ECONS student. Yeap, I've changed course. Its for the best, and I really hope it is my call. So, wish me luck ey? :)

Now that CFS is over alhamdulillah, I am starting to reminisce the old times. Gets teary when I think about it, because those times were meaningful. And in Gombak, those moments will be more treasured as we will be further apart.

I remember me and my friends, we were classmates for like, a complete year? Classmates for almost every single class. Imagine. Such that we know, the name list according to order. We know each other's full names. We know matric numbers. ( Kinda pesky if we need to know CAM, since lecturers only list down matric number and CAM, but since we know each others anyway,no point of confidentiality -.- ) We know when is the right exact time to raise our hands for the name. We text each other for homeworks, we planned to cancel class together. We made the class to be canceled together. We cover for each other. We cheat with each other during quizzes.

Best of all? We have each other. And it feels great that, after I changed my course, they are supportive, and they even suggest meet ups when in Gombak, just so that the friendship we have won't fall apart. Thanks you guys :)

All nighter

Still an all nighter

Ice skate, among the best times :)

End of sem 1, 2010/2011

There's always a first.

2010-11-18T23:52:00.000+08:00

For the first time ever, I celebrated Aidil Adha without my parents. Or my sister and brother-in-law. You see, my parents are currently performing pilgrimage. And my sister was working on that day. So the night before Aidil Adha, my brother and I went to our kampung in Malacca, with our extended family.

And for the first time in my life, I did not eat any slaughtered meat.

And instead I spend my Aidil Adha by:

1) I squeezed freshly shredded coconut with water, then it will produce coconut milk. Again and again. You know those hand flexor thingy? Well I think I don't need to use that. Ever.

2) I was busy playing with animals. Really. There was this chicken lying on the ground, and I thought it was "relaxing". Turned out it was dying, "embracing" its final moments. Later that evening, it died. I swear I didn't do anything, all I did was talk to it. " Kenapa kau baring kat sini, pergila main-main macam ayam lain, eh kau, dengar tak,tido je keja" :/ Oh and yeah, there were turkeys, geese, many many flies, and yes, cats.

Comel kannn. The one where you can see its face is Tabby. The one which is that orange furball is Muffin. I gave that orange furball's name :D And they are only a week old. And Persian cats too!

3) Played some IQ blocks. I hate that thing. You are suppose to arrange that wooden blocks to form a shape according to the diagram given.

Something similar.

So yeah, that's how I spend my Aidil Adha 2010.
Oh and btw, I didn't even wear my baju kurung. Not the first time.

Letih

2010-11-14T01:52:00.000+08:00

Today I went out with my family. With my brother of 21 years old my cousin of 25 years old, her sister (my cousin too) of 14 years old, and my aunty. So yeah, all girls and a guy. Haha. Well, initially we planned to go along with my sister and her hubbie, but due to some complications they couldn't join us.
So yeah, my cousin drove to our house and reached around 1.30 pm.
We reached One Utama around 2 pm. And man, its super-packed! But we managed to get a parking lot, and seats at Pizza Hut. Ordered Royal Masala, and Hawaiian Chicken. And 2 Seafood Marinara(s). I always love eating my pizzas with loads of cheese powder, and today was no different. Mak Ngah saw and she tried, and well. She ate all her pizzas with heaps of cheese powder then :D
Then we went to UBowl. God I suck at bowling! Yang ada bola 8 paling ringan, 6 ngan 7 gone. And half of my score were dashes because it went down the drain. God I suck. Real bad. But altogether it was fun.

Nana bought Clark's shoes. And Mak Ngah did too. I pick them both :D
Oh we met Busu! And Alyssa. And we ate Baskin's together. I had Jr. Double scoops :D
We had dinner at Boomtown, Usj 11. Had char kuey teow besar taknak sayur, ayam madu teruna, otak-otak satu bakul, and yes, sirap limau all time fav :)
Then, next stop. HOME!
Reached around 10.30pm.
Crazy tiring long day, but fun.
And money flowed out like water.

Non-productive

2010-11-12T19:03:00.002+08:00

I'm feeling useless. I'm not doing anything productive. Really, I did none since my parents went away for hajj. Well yeah, I did chores. Washing the clothes and folding them, cleaning the dishes and so on. But those are plain basics. Those are the things that I've always done all this while.

Maybe I should cook. But I had problems.

Problem No.1:

I planned on doing S'mores. I've bought the digestive cookies and the marshmallows. But the marshmallows had this "Eat me! Eat me!" screams, and I've obliged. Haha :D

Problem No.2:

Wanted to make brownies, but there's only cooking chocolate and butter, but there's no chocolate chips.

Problem No.3:

Wanted to do cake, but I have no cream. Wanted to do cookies, but finds it tiring. Wanted to do muffins, but I'm stuck at Problem No.2, no chocolate chips.

Shucks.

Lovely, aren't they? Made them for last Raya :)

Child

2010-11-08T16:18:00.002+08:00

My heart goes out to all those broken families. It is sad, to see the family that you build, go haywire and tangled up, and then broken and lost. And its much worse, to see their kids. Sometimes, as they are young, they don't understand what's going around. But some, they grow up older than their age because of this.

Recently, a family came by my house. A pair of grandparents and their granddaughter about the age of 7. The little girl's parents are currently divorced. The father had left them, and the mother had to work somewhere else to support herself and her little daughter. Hence, the daughter is under the care of her grandparents.

The girl was at first soft, and then she turned hyper. She faked a big laugh almost every 5 minutes so that people will notice her. And she did naughty things too, though she is not naughty. Because when I commented on her behaviour, she relented immediately. She only wants attention.

After a while, I asked where is her mom, and she responded " Tu kat depan tu, mak saya tua kan" referring to her grandma. And when I asked where is her dad, she responded " Ayah kat depan, ayah tua jugak kan". I was shocked. She referred them as her parents, and not her grandparents. that shows how broken is the home.

We chatted for awhile, when I suddenly asked her where is she from, and she said " Tempat jauh. Lame pulak tu nak sampai. Dalam kereta ade 2 bantal je, tapi xde selimut. Sejuk". I then responded, why don't you cuddle to your grandma? Because we all know, that human can provide a soothing warmth. Her answer really shocked me, she said " Mak tak suke saya peluk. Mak pernah cakap jangan peluk dia".

Its sad really, for her. Maybe her grandma refused to do so, as she resembled her father. Then again, she is only a child. An innocent child. :(

I used to have this when I was young. Its a Cabbage Patch doll. I called her Judy. I missed my childhood. And sometimes, I realised. That sometimes I act childish, because I want to re-connect with my childhood. I wish I could correct some. But everything's done. And I threw her away.

It Never Ends

2010-11-04T22:48:00.002+08:00

Its been awhile, really. Its been awhile that I've been sick. Back at Nilai, I'm known for being fragile and weak. During taaruf, I fell and my left foot started to swell. And down with high fever. Skipped some taaruf activities, and then it got too swelled up, and I end up at the hospital -.-

Then the first few weeks of class, I had to limp my way to class. Even got stopped by the 'mak guards' and lecturers. And boy, that's how probably half of the CFS knows me, " perempuan yang kaki bengkak tu". Aish.

After that, I went down with severe food poisoning due to the spicy foods. Skipped a few classes with that reason. Since then, I was a regular patient at the clinic. There was even this one time, I had this terrible period pain, but I need an MC to not go to class. I walked very slowly, or shall I say, excruciatingly to the clinic. Got my meds, got my MC. And then the unexpected- I'm allergic to the meds. It made my eyes swollen, that I had to squint to see. And yes, a long way back to the clinic for the cure.

So anyway, last Mon I was down with flu. But I hold on to it. By the next day, I was down with fever as well. It lasted for two days. I'm okay now, but I still have the remains of flu. Oh, and a new cough virus caught up with me. I know, I know. Fragile. -.-

Past Halloween

2010-11-01T15:18:00.002+08:00

HAPPY HALLOWEEN!

Now I don't celebrate them. I don't remember being invited to one for few years. Though I still get excited to look at the decorations :D

Back then in my childhood days, my friends were mostly non-muslim. Even if they are, they were the open-minded kinds. I remember there was this one year, my friend organized a Halloween party. Being a child, and dressing up seemed exciting, I pleaded my Mum to send me to the party. I went there as a cowgirl. Haha. Well, almost. I had this retro pink blouse with colourful frays at the cuffs, and a pair of bell bottoms. Oh, and I had no hat -.-

There were many other girls who really showed their effort. They wore tutu skirts, with handmade wings ( out of cardboards) attached to their shoulders, and even made wands with a huge glittery star at the end.

But in the end, I won the best outfit. The judge? My bestfriend ;)

Haha okay biased. Then again, kids are biased. I think. So as a gift for my costume, I received a pink glass bracelet made of glass beads, and a box of chocolates. And I still keep the bracelet :D

Weak.

2010-10-27T12:45:00.002+08:00

Everyone has their own strength. From what I've know (and experienced), I don't have much. I rely on other people. When something bad happens, when an obstacle turns up, I seek other people. For their strength. And comfort. I've always thought I am an optimistic. Filled with positivity. Well, I do, but at times that I really should, I don't.

I always though that I am a happy and bubbly person. But when I fail to do something, I fall. Hard.Maybe its normal. Its just that I am not accepting it. Still in denial. Hoping that if I didn't say out loud, it won't come true. Or at least I thought so.

Then again, from these things we rise. It takes time, but hey, if it isn't hard, nobody hates failure anymore.

But I still do.

Less by one.

2010-10-21T16:56:00.002+08:00

Today, I had a dentist appointment in the morning. I had mentally prepared myself, that she is going to remove two of my lower wisdom teeth and the jab will hurt a lot.

Wrong answer.

She removed only one today. Its the easy one. For the other one that requires surgery, next week. Oh god. And the easy was upper, the latter the lower. And I was mortified. I was nervous, shaking, shivering. And I could hear my heart thumping : THUMP THUMP THUMP. So loud that I felt that the people around me can hear it.

She gave the jabs. I was afraid, so I squeezed the assistant's hands tightly. It hurts slightly, and that's all. After a while, I could feel my cheek expanding. She tested by poking it, I said I could feel the pressure AND a slight pain. She said if I still can feel, I require more jabs. I said no.

Wrong answer.

It hurts. And she was, I don't know, cracking the tooth? I could feel it! So I got a total of 4 jabs. Great. So 4 tight squeezes for the assistant. Haha.

So now, my cheek is still swollen, and my gum bleeding. And I'm hungry, and I can't bite. I am so desperate that I had to suck on little crumbles of Chispmore to feed my appetite :(

Nope, Not Mine.

2010-10-20T14:53:00.003+08:00

Its quite a common scene where the younger siblings are taller or bigger than the eldest. Since I am the youngest, I get to be tall one. Well, I wouldn't call myself bigger than my sister really. Since I am taller, obviously I have longer legs and arms to be in proportion with the rest of my body.

And my sister is one small person. I currently stands at 5 feet 3, and she stands slightly over than 5 feet. We weighs the same. We have almost similar sizes of clothings, only my shoulders are bit bigger than hers. It doesn't make much difference because we usually swap clothes. As for pants, we can wear each other's. But definitely not jeans. She has shorter legs :p

But my mom doesn't see all that. She still gets mixed up with our clothes, randomly putting whichever she thinks belong to us. What's worse: panties. I assumed they all look the same to her ( obviously). So what I did to clear her confusion is to point out which ones are mine.

I told her that mine are the plain coloured ones. A simple one colour panty. And then she pulled one from the pile of clothes. " So this one is not yours right?" she said. I looked at it, and said, " Its mine la mummy." Then she continued lecturing me, even suggesting me to label my own panties so as she won't mix them up, bla bla bla. Why? The one that she pulled out was grey, with pink edges and a ribbon. So much for plain. -.-

Dreams We All Have

2010-10-15T23:26:00.002+08:00

The other day I was talking with him about our dream house. And then I realised, I have a lot of dreams. :/ Really, if and only if I have all the money in th world, oh my. My house will be gorgeous. Then again, you have to work hard for them. Meaning you'll appreciate things more, especially free things (?).

Anyway, what I really want is a big kitchen. I love baking, so a big space will be great. I want an island table in the middle of the kitchen, and maybe electrical stoves on top of it and a small sink to go with it. Thing is, when I bake, I like to prepare the ingredients earlier and measure them, and then proceed to put them into individual bowls. I have this annoying tendency to arrange them in front of me, because if they're not, I'll panic and most probably misplace them. Trust me, I did -.-

And then, bedrooms! I want them to be cosy and comfortable. Not necessarily expensive, but cosy is a definite yes. Want it to be calm and soothing, a place I can relax my mind, and my body. Mmmm..

I saw this in an ad a few years ago. Its called Rain Sky if I'm not mistaken. Fix it to the ceiling, (idk how) and then turn it on. It feels like rain! :D Okay, a bit ridiculous, but still, its nice right?

Oh and oh, I want a jacuzzi! By the window pleaseee. So I can have a nice relaxing bath with all the soft candles and fragrant bath oils and see the shining stars at night..total bliss.

I'd like a bench swing too, and a nice garden with rabbits scampering about between the jasmine plants, and a fish pond. Oh and big plush sofa sets with thick carpets that you have to wade as you walk on it, and cold marble tiles, and a spiral grand staircase, and this huge circular rattan bed with a mattress on it, and a hammock, maybe two, and a fireplace. Fireplace? In Malaysia? Well, I just want the place. Without lighting the fire please :)

Okay, that's a long list -.-

Fresh Cuts

2010-10-14T23:00:00.002+08:00

On the 13th Oct 2010, was my anniversary with him. It marks a year of us being together, and honestly, I felt our relationship wasn't that long. Still could remember how we became friends, and how we first met and stuffs like that. I remembered that while we were in UIA's orientation, he kept asking me to meet up, but I have always and always rejected his offer.

Not because I was nervous, but I haven't worn a scarf in quite awhile ( UIA requires their students to wear scarves ) and so it was crooked everywhere. It wasn't much help that the scarves provided were starchy and really hard to manage, it won't bend as it should be, and it isn't flattering either.

We finally met after that, and things went smooth sailing after that. Our friends kept trying to give ideas about each other, to me and him. And when we finally did declared, they were estactic and also relieved, and some were even like " bukan dah lame dah ke?/ Weren't that some time ago?"

And I was ever glad to agree to be his, because then I realised, he brings out the best in me, and let me experience things I never did know. We're complete opposites, but then again opposites attract right? Insya Allah, if god willing, I want to be in that special place in your heart and your mind, until the end of everything. Amin.

Btw, I cut my hair. Okay terpesong. Hehe. But look! The lady was a darling, she gave me layers to soften my face. At first, it still looks long right?

Chin up, and ta-daa! How angles can manipulate right :D

Okay kan? :)

Finale

2010-10-10T22:54:00.003+08:00

Raya ends. :(

So for the finale, I had 3 open houses. One in Puchong, one in SS19, and one in Subang Bestari. So you can imagine how big my tummy was by the end of the day. Masuk rumah Mira pun dah tak larat. :( What I did at her house, was instead or raya-ing, karaoke-ing. Seriously. With all the dances and shakes, and shouting with all my might -.- After all those, my voice was breaking and I'm sticky, but my spirit was still up? Sigh, tulah hyper sangat.

Its leaving.

2010-10-04T23:00:00.002+08:00

I love raya period. Its where people invite you to their houses, you get to meet old, current and new friends, and you get food. If you're lucky, it comes with duit raya too :D But raya is almost leaving, this Saturday, and its already a Monday! :( An end to it. Sigh. But! I have two open houses on that day itself. Macam closing camtula. Hehehe so kene makan puas puas. Sepuas hati. Kemestian!

An End for A Beginning

2010-09-27T00:23:00.002+08:00

In a few days, my days in Nilai will end. Insya allah, if god willing. To let me embark for days in Gombak next. So this means this is my final sem here.
Am I sad? Am I happy?
Its a mixture of feelings. You see, I've been through this. This wasn't supposed to be my last sem. This is an extended sem.. I've parted with my friends. They're gone to Gombak. And now, I'm parting again with my Nilai friends. But hey, there's where reunion comes in right? :)

Selamat Hari Raya ;)

2010-09-13T21:49:00.002+08:00

SELAMAT HARI RAYA! MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN :)

My adorable little niece, Durra Arissa and my cuzzie Sister Syairah :)

My cuzzie, Sister Ira and of course, truly yours ;)

I'll Be Your Worst Nightmare

2010-09-04T20:41:00.002+08:00

Actually, that "I" in my title refers to : period pain.

If there's a club on period pain sufferers I'll be their active member. If it comes with points, hell, I'm sure I'm among the top. For having bad bad bad period pain, with terrible symptoms. And its becoming irregular. I didn't get any for July. August's was sort of long instead of the usual 5-6 days, that made me ponteng puasa. And now, its September where I assumed it will be in another 5-6 days but it came early. And its still the month of puasa -.-

So yeah, bangun sahur as usual. Slept. Woke up with cramps. Proceeded to hang the clothes then felt uneasy and went to the loo. Surprise, its PERIOD! I panicked. I know its gonna be painful. Quickly drank a hot Milo. Biscuits. Lay down on the bed and texted him. Minutes later, nightmare has begun. Throwing up, and I was doubled in pain. I couldn't sit up properly or stand up straight.

Called Mum and told her to please buy me porridge. She did, and I ate it slowly so that my tummy won't reject it. It failed. I vomited again right after that. And then I called him, crying on the phone. I don't know why, I know he's not here to actually comfort betul-betul, but hearing his voice was soothing enough. I cried and cried despite of a few disturbances. Then I told him I need to go, nak muntah.

Yes I did. All on the floor. And it was whatever remaining of the porridge. And what's worse, I actually snorted a piece of chicken out of my nostril. Okay, gross. Haha. But I remembered thinking when I did that, "What the fuck. Asal ade ayam." I was shivering from all those vomiting, and weak. I felt like passing out. Then called him back, nanges lagi sampai credit gone.

Proceeded to cry again, and put a lappy on my tummy. Its hot. Super. But good. I slept with it on. An hour later then I'm okay.

They say to get rid of this pain is to get married, go have sex, and have a baby. It works that way. Sayang, cepat kahwin ngan i! -.-

So yeah. I don't like the way it hurts, you period pain.

Other's Mess.

2010-09-02T00:55:00.002+08:00

I could cry.

Actually, I did.

See, I have 3 assignments for two different subjects. Maths and Accounts. And I'm supposed to submit 1 a week after a trip, and another 2 on the same day, 1st September. Maths was given approx a week, and Accounts, a week and another assignment, 2 weeks. Okay. We'll begin my complaints. You can judge me later.

Accounts.

The first assignment was a report on a Yakult trip. We were given guidelines on our report. Our job is to copy down any info needed from the trip. Easy. We have 6 members. Right? Well, out of 6, 4 did their jobs. 2 didn't. Well those two gave a hell lots of prob. I named them, J and F. We all wrote infos. They didn't. I asked them, why? and they answered " I dun't know what to write". Seriously? Even with a guideline? And then F saw that my notebook was filled with scribbled notes, and said " Wow, you wrote. We could use that". And I answered, " We ALL wrote" before walking off. A few days later, suddenly J said, " eh x payah buat report, i dah buat". I was shocked. Really. And I said " Kenapa tak discuss? Nanti tunjuk kat aku, mane taw kene edit ape ape". J: " eh xpayahla, aku copy paste je dari internet". WOW. That easy. Anyway, we leave it. A day before submission, we had a group discussion. She came, and said " Aku letak semua dalam pendrive. Pendrive kene virus so xboleh nak bukak. Kire kene buat baru". I could cry.

Second, a study case. Told them to email to me their work by 30th. Some did, some did not. Some did, when it was after midnight. Which we need to submit on 1st. Oh, and when I told F that she need to do the visual aid using mahjong paper, she said her handwriting is ugly and sucks, ask J instead, and she had to do it all alone?? Tak pikir the rest of our situations.

Maths.

W and Y. Only a week of preparing. All our meetings, ended up with me doing the work. they just stared, and when i told them to do theirs, they said they don't know. TRY la. I have no idea on what to do too. I tried getting help from a male friend, and asked them to accompany. They said "segan". I'm not "segan" is it? My friend didn't manage to work it out. When I meet W and Y again, they asked " kawan awak dapat buat tak?dapat sampai mane?". Told them it didn't work out, let's meet tonight. Submission tomorrow. Y said, she has accounts discussion at 830. Let's meet at 9. I don't have discussion is it? She came at 930, and have to be back by 10 as she stays in block A. WTH. As for W, when I told her bout the time, she said " tapi nak pergi terawih". Tak wajib kan. And besok kene hantar. She said" xpe nanti i jenguk". JENGUK?? She did what she said. She came with her telekung, hovering over me while I was on the floor with the papers. We managed to get help from a friend, and I had to do all. Again she said, "tak taw". When its all done, she said to them "thanks eh korang" and then to me " i balik dulu". and off she goes.

Yes, I should cry again. For holding fort for those types of people. Orang tak bertanggungjawab, and take things for granted.

Idk.

2010-08-31T01:27:00.002+08:00

Please, go away. Wait, come back. No, leave. Please, here. Right in my heart.

2010-08-27T22:17:00.000+08:00

I'm afraid. Really, I am.

Botol Air.

2010-08-22T13:58:00.001+08:00

Okay. Ada tumblr now.Feel free to visit. Hmm. I joined tumblr cause it makes me hungry always. Damn. www.themaggiesyndrome.tumblr.com

Hunger all around.

2010-08-16T15:04:00.002+08:00

Okay. Lapar. Tak tipu. SUPER LAPAR. Haishh. And Maghrib is a few hours away, agonizing how I'm supposed to wait. And I did something I should not do, I stared at food pictures all day -.-

And this was what I ate last night, Ayam Golek Madu. Succulent. Juicy. Sweet. Scrumptious. Finger-licking good.

Then again, later I'm going to the bazaar in UIA. I feel like eating quail eggs suddenly. Mmmm~ yummy. I should sleep or something. No, I should reduce it. Okay, I'll lessen the time. But I'm still sleeping :)

You know who you are.

2010-08-13T16:46:00.003+08:00

Today, its the 13th of August. It marks a length of 10 months of us being together, officially. I have to admit, it wasn't easy to keep up with this relationship. We have our ups and our downs. There were times, I feel like giving up. Or there were times, where I just want you to go away. Despite whatever I said, " go away, I can't stand you, leave me alone, I'm getting tired of this,etc" all I wanted was you to don't go away, come here and comfort me, make me feel all warm and needed, tell me you're here for me, because you promised me you'll be there for me no matter what happens. Then again, I can't be selfish and expectant of you. Sometimes I have to lower my bloody ego, just to reach to you. I have to be there for you too.

Only 2 months away, and we'll celebrate a year of us, of you and me. And I hope, more years to come, till the end of life, till the end of everything. I know. I always mess up. I am always the one that start those stupid crappy fights. Am always the one that make a big fuss over your faults. Then again, deep down, I love you. No matter what I said. Or whatever I do. I love you so much. You know who you are.

Puasa Resolutions ;)

2010-08-12T15:57:00.002+08:00

Its the second day of Ramadhan. Trust me, I am not complaining. YET. Truth is, I'm having my period. So in Islam, its considered as ladies' off days, where we are not allowed to fast. No, not that exciting. Yeah fun, I could eat whatever I want while others watch with their hungry eyes. I've been doing that actually ;p In fact, I ate a 500ml Nestle ice-cream just now. :D Its quite rude though, we're supposed to respect the others who fast. But I asked them whether they mind or not, and I'll scoot away. But they said its okay, so yeah, its okay :) Then again, I have to ganti puasa later on :(

By the way, I have puasa resolutions! :D

Less buying of food.
Less eating, especially late at night.
Reduce sleeping.
Stop buying accesories with reasons of ' for raya'
Terawih in the IIUM mosque. At least once!
Lessen my temper.
And cursings.

Haha okay. Not according to order. Lets see whether I'll make it or not. ;) Happy Ramadhan!

Luck.

2010-08-09T15:25:00.002+08:00

On the 7th of August 2010, I went to Syidah's house at around 12 noon. Met her mom and on and on. Went up to her room, and then she told me to pick a bag as a souvenir from her. She had bought all the bags from Vietnam you see. And they were all pretty! Wished I could pick all. Haha. But my pick was a large cream bag, with pink and green swirls :)

Later, Milah fetched us and off to Pyramid! We wanted to watch a movie but the queue was too long, so we've decided to have lunch instead. And Ryan told us that he'll be spending us, since he just got back from Singapore. So yeah, he spent us Nando's :)

A while later, I cut my fringe for RM5. Oh and Daddy gave me money to buy a pair of shoes. And so I did. A pair from Charles&Keith for only RM50! Real bargain, and it was the last pair of my size, on the last day of their sale. After a few hours of hanging out, we decided to go home. Milah gave them all a ride, but hung out with me, Apek, and Meng at Darus in SS15. And Meng told us to have anything we want, all on him :)

God I love them all :)

Oh and the next day, I bought new spectacles and a blouse, courtesy of Daddy :)

Sayang semua orang :)

Only If.

2010-08-03T14:12:00.002+08:00

Have you ever feel lost in your own world?

Have you ever felt that nobody understands you?

You want them to understand, but you can't make them.

You want to speak up, but no words came out.

You want to express your feelings, but some thing is holding you back.

Pulling you away.

Making you feel numb.

Maybe its not time?

Or you just can't push yourself forward?

Stuck in between

Your thoughts, their thoughts

Should you care about theirs?

Do theirs really matter?

You only need a push

Away from your contemplates

Away from your doubts

Insecurities

You don't trust you

But hopes other people does

Have believe in me

You say

Only if you trust you

They say

Only if.

Perut kenyang suke hati :D

2010-07-31T22:40:00.002+08:00

Today, I intended to do revision. I really did. I did halfway. But I did it. Because halfway through my plan, Mum suddenly knocked my door " Do you want to go out?" Obviously I said yes in a split sec. Then she asked, where do I want to go? That took me awhile. After several minutes, I've decided. Subang Empire.

Well, its the latest shopping gallery in town, or to be exact Subang Jaya. The place I live! :D So yeah, there's alot of shops over there. TANGS, Dorothy Perkin's, Madam Kwan's, Tarbush, Kenny's..GUESS, okay banyak lagi but I am not going to list them -.-

What we did as soon as we reached there, we ate at The Loaf!

The Loaf my sweetheart.. I had a lot over there. I ate Red Bean with Walnut bun, croissants, Magazine, and a Choc Banana Panini. Delicious I'm telling you. I was supposed to take pictures of it, but I only realised when I was three quarters downing the food. So what's the point right? That shows how greedy I am -.- Btw, I applied a membership at The Loaf! Only RM10, for a lifetime! More reasons to eat their yummies ;P

Oh then we had a walk around.. browsing through the shops. I saw a beautiful dress at TANG'S. Its midnight blue, with butterfly sleeves, and it looks really elegant yet simple, shame its knee length. I would have bought it if its floor length :(

*jalan jalan jalan*

Then we saw this restaurant '' I Love Yoo". Its famous for its tau foo fah and thats what we got. Yummy! All soft and smooth :)

Oh and this thing, its called butterfly. Its cakueh-like, only with sesame seeds on them :)

Before going back, I just couldn't resist myself not entering Chocolate World. Its mini-heaven! And that's where I bought milk chocolate-coated almond rice clusters :) Again, I forgot to snap a picture. This time its worse, dah habis makan baru ingat :/

So, what a filling day isn't it? And then balik rumah makan nasi goreng pattaya. Wahhh. Boolat perut.

Lack of An Essential.

2010-07-27T17:49:00.003+08:00

God. Help me. Please.

I woke up for sahur this morning, and proceeded to brush my teeth. And instead of the cold blast of water on my cupped hands for gurgling, a slow trickle of water greeted me instead. At once, it hit me. UIA nanti tak ade air. That was a smart hunch. But I did a dumb action. I did not tadah air. And sambung tidur -.-

Around Subuh, my dormmate woke me up. she told me to bathe, "air dah makin skit". What I said in reply " Tak nak". -.-

When I finally got up around 9, then only I started to panic. Tak ada air tak ada air! Crapppp. The only option was the pili bomba. These kids were filling up their pails with it. I have no idea how they can bathe with it. It stink. Ew. And it has some certain chemical in it right?

Nevertheless, I did collect the water in my pail. But I used air masak *found it in the dorm* and washed my face and other crucial parts. But I did not bathe. Hahaha. Pergi kelas tak mandi, tapi kantoi jugak sebab perfume semerbak bila masuk kelas ;p

So right now, things are getting worse. Air pili bomba habis. We are surviving on those jumbo mineral water bottles that costs Rm1-Rm1.20 each. Sigh.

According to UIA, this prob will end by 9am tomorrow. No help though, my class starts at 9 tomorrow. Then again, the security guards told one of the students it will end only in 3 days :o

Actually, UIA kalau tak ada air nak buat macam mane kan, coz sedang buat pembersihan kolam or something. But be kind enough to supply us with those tank lorries. I don't mind bringing my pails and queue in the never ending queue and then go up again up to my dorm, on the 3rd floor. I think.

Short note at Madam Kwan's.

2010-07-25T15:39:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was family day.

Sort of.

After the Maghrib prayers, we went to MidValley.

Drove all the way to MidValley from Putra Heights, just to eat at Madam Kwan's.

Well, its worth it.

I ordered Black Pepper Chicken Chop, and gosh, its so yummy. Its quite a big portion, but somehow I managed to finished it all, that shows how hungry I was!

And alongside a soy bean drink for myself. It tasted fresh and clean (without that typical preservatives taste) and sugar is given separately, so the customer can add it according to taste.

Oh oh and I had Prawn Fritters as well, its all peeled :) So my hands are clean, and its given with tartar sauce instead of the conventional dilute chilli sauce.

And I had Banana Junk, its a banana split with 3 scoops of ice cream. Well what I like about it, they serve a generous amount of whipped cream on top of it, just as I've always liked.

Okay gile malas post ni. Hahaha. Dahla pictures dua je -.-

Oh well. Hee.

Black Pepper sauce

The chicken chop

Home, puasa and weight.

2010-07-24T13:33:00.004+08:00

I miss home.

Really I do. And I've just been away from home for only two weeks. I thought I won't feel a thing, like the same way I felt when my sister and my brother went off to UitM in Melaka, or when I had taaruf ( orientation program) in UIA for a week in PJ, or when I had to leave home for UIA in Nilai, Negeri Sembilan. Maybe at first I didn't feel a thing, you know, its almost like a thrill when something new happens. But it has gone for over a year -.- Grow up Aimi!

Well puasa is coming soon. Like sikit je lagi! Wahhh can't wait for all those yummy delectable food :D Crap, its supposed to be something to obtain the baraqah *is that the right word?* in Ramadhan, not enjoying myself having all kinds of food.

And this Ramadhan I can't afford to gain weight! Not that I'm overweight or something, and ye taw, I kurus and all, blablabla, but hey, those fats go to my face okay. Makes my face go boooolat. Blame the fats la. Because I do eat a lot okay, I don't restrict my food intake. I just don't want to over-indulge. Ada paham?

That's me, can't sleep, missing home, or in exact words, I miss my bed.

Curly Wurly

2010-07-19T13:05:00.004+08:00

Okay remember I mentioned about therapy in my last post? Well since I didn't go home the last weekend, I did a mini therapy. Well besides my comfort food of course. Food is essential!! Food makes me happy, cheers me up every single time. So whenever I'm upset or feeling under the weather, just hand me a bar of chocolate or a bowl of ice cream or something similar. I'll be yp and about,jumping my ass off :D

Back to the topiccc. Ish. Melencong. Well, me and Dayang checked out a YouTube video by MichellePhan. You just type in how to curl hair with a paper bag and eventually you'll reach to her.

Yeap paper bags alright. And we even used McDonald's paperbags. Lagi save budget :D And this is the result? Awesome I know. Hehehehe.

Well the steps are easy.

Wet hair thoroughly.
Tear the paperbag into vertical strips.
Twist the paper strip into a small section of your hair,and secure it by twisting your hair around the paper strip again and again.
Repeat for the whole head.
Wait until your hair dries off,or you can use a hair dryer. Or as long as you want.
And tadaa~! Curls all set and ready. Though you might want to use mousse or something to make the curls stay long.

Just A Short One.

2010-07-10T13:23:00.002+08:00

I just wanna go somewhere that I can be at peace

Somewhere that I can feel happy

relaxed

And just let the things off my mind

Somewhere that I feel serene

With someone that can cheer me up

Share with me those moments

Hmm. Exams are coming. Along with quizzes. I have to keep up. I must. Then I need therapy.

In my head.

2010-07-04T14:45:00.003+08:00

When things doesn't turn out great, they say you can try again. Just keep trying and eventually it will turn out alright. I have always wondered, how strong can we actually be, to wait for "eventually"? We all know, patience and strengths has its limits and boundaries. Are we patient enough to wait for in the long-term benefits? Or maybe, being only a 19 years old, I am just an immature adult, who haven't reached the ultimate up to par standards of thinking.

Moving on.

Right now I currently am taking Economics foundation. For degree, I have no idea whatsoever to major in. Accounting is an axe above my head. Studying it is a migraine trigger. Doing it as a living? Whoaa, hold it right back over there. Personally, I wouldn't want to work as an accountant. See the long term effect okay. Accountants are always dealing with figures and digits and datelines = STRESS. Plus, when I get married * come on, it has to get to there at some point isn't it* I want to spend time with my family. And yes, I still want to work. Be it something light or something, I still want.

Someone told me, I will last only a month of working when I have a family of my own. I'd try not to. Yes, I want to spend as much time as I could with my child, but then again, I want to have a life of my own too. I want to have colleagues, I want to have that independent feeling. No, its not about the money. Its just something that I could feel attached too. And I've thought about it for a long while and decided. That when I have a family of my own, I want to be involved in something that has to do with writing. Be it a columnist or someone that writes articles in media or something. I don't want to spend my years of education to work only for a few years. Thats a final decision of mine, that's it and it's that.

Next up.

You know the feeling when you feel down, and you just need someone to be there with you and for you, but then it didn't turn out so well? I know that feeling. Its a feeling of you putting your hopes on someone but it crashed. You want to be taken care of but you're being let off. You want that someone to understand, or if he or she doesn't understand, pretends he or she does not asking questions that can irritate. You want that when you want to talk about it, he or she is there for you, no matter how the situations are..and not you can only talk about it at the right timing. I want that kind of someone. Where are you, someone.

the road to happiness

A wedding of the family.

2010-06-26T17:23:00.006+08:00

Okay it was a hectic week last weekend. On the 19th of June was my sister's solemnization. And on the 20th was the wedding. Well, I managed to take pictures from the nikah, but as for the bersanding I did not, because I was among the bridesmaids for her.

The rest of the pictures are on Facebook, but here are bits and pieces of it.

Upacara membatalkan air sembahyang/ invalidate the ablution event

bersanding

Me and my cousin, Syaira

bunga telur untuk tetamu yang merenjis/ gifts for the guests who gave their blessings

the bedroom for the newlyweds

My cousin, Nadhirah and me. Don't I look tall? :p

Me and my friend of 12 years, Amirah. And yes, she's my bestie. So I call her Milah :)

Syidah, me, and Shaza. My babes too :)

And that is my twin in UIA, Arishah. She's taller than me, and she's wearing flats. Grr.

The inai/ henna I applied on my fingernails and toenails :)

So yeah, you have a rough idea of the ongoings based on these few pictures :D One thing I'd like to share, we provided a guest book to wish the newlyweds. So when I wrote mine, my relatives said that mine was too long, and it looked like an essay -.- Its not like I filled the whole page didn't I? It was about three quarter of the page only. Hee. Hey, its all my thoughts for them okay. And also considered a doa. See, its for the best for both of them, and don't complain about my great writing skills :D

Anyway, CONGRATULATIONS to my sister and my brother-in-law : Alia and Fazli. :)

Imperfections.

2010-06-18T17:30:00.002+08:00

The other night I was bathing with Dayang (mind you, different stalls) when she asked me ( yeah we talk while we bath), " Maggie, ape yang Maggie tak puas hati dengan diri sendiri? Dari segi luaran?" Or in translation she is asking me, what am I not satisfied with myself physically? It took me a while to answer. Let me explain to you why.

I am lucky enough to be blessed with a fair complexion. Or to be exact, of a yellowish tone. I do have blemishes, bitsy here and there, but not prominent or obvious. A speckle only. Okay, maybe I do get visits by one or two pimples, but that is during the time of the month. I am lucky enough to have proper natural eyebrows, I don't have to pluck it. Though I have slits for eyes when I laugh or smile, I am still proud of it. Though I have a not-that-sharp nose, at least it shows that I am imperfect in some ways. Or when I did braces to straighten my teeth.

I am lucky enough to still have a slender (?) body despite of my eating habits. Although I do have a soft tummy instead of a washboard abs, but hey, that makes me different right? Though I am not as tall as Arishah, I am still proud to stand at a 161cm. I don't have beautiful flowing locks. I only have wavy shoulder length hair. If you think wow, wavy? Think again. Mine gets fluffy at all the wrong times. But hey, its not a big problem isn't it?

Or maybe I am too optimistic.

Anyway, my answer to her was : assets. -.- hahaha

Something different.

2010-06-15T16:46:00.003+08:00

Right now, I have no classes in the afternoon. Only in the mornings. I know, some of you may prefer class in the afternoons then mornings. Trust me, when you are in Nilai you won't want to. Reasons why? Its damn hot to walk under the scorching blazing burning sun right over your head with no shelter for you. Using an umbrella helps, but it doesn't reduce the sweat doesn't it? Hmm so yeah. I have the advantage to avoid all that by staying in my dormitory since of the absence of classes.

To combat my boredom, I actually spend my time completing my homework and revising some notes. I even have enough time to read novels in between time, have my evening nap, and even go online. Seems like I do get benefits from my free time. :)

By the way, my phone had gone cuckoo. It refused to charge itself, I tried charging it the whole night, but it only went up a few percentages? Seriously? The only way is to remove my battery and then stick it up into someone else's phone and charge. Hmmm. Weird way I know. So I've got a solution.

Get a new baby! Tadaa~

Its called Vivaz. And by Sony Ericsson. Heee. My new baby is my new love! ;)

I am so happy :D

7th June 2010.

2010-06-11T22:26:00.003+08:00

Slits for eyes and fats for cheeks.

I know. Its been awhile since I blogged. Forgive me, because I am quite busy with certain stuffs. But hey, I'm back on track now right? :)

Last Monday was Shafiq's birthday. So when it was midnight, I rounded up my friends and sang to him Happy Birthday. And then he asked " You ajak your whole dorm nyanyi ke?" When it was a total of 4 of us! Hahaha, we must have sang heartily :D

And then, on Monday itself we went out to celebrate his birthday. What I gave him I will not announce here okay. And also what we did. But it did somehow made him happy and all beaming with a big smile plastered on his face *kan sayang? I am not imagining things kan? :D *

10pm was my curfew. We arrived at the station at 10pm. and there were no taxis around. In the end we hitched an airport taxi. Desperate right. The thing is, I was panicking my ass off. Seriously. I was whining and muttering to myself of what excuse to mention to guards. And blaming him for the delays and stuffs.

And he was laughing. To be exact: at me. Probably he thought I looked funny with my worried expressions. And when we arrived, there were no guards. And, the gates were open. :o For me! Lucky me. And of course, He laughed all the way to his dormitory. And even said " see I told you nothing would happen. Trust me" .

We'll see okay next time.

And I'm glad I provide you with all the er, laughter? Hmppp.

Its All About You

2010-05-29T16:10:00.002+08:00

Sigh.

Its a Saturday.

I was very psyched that he is gonna come back tomorrow. He went away on Thursday morning. I told him I'll spam his hp inbox because I miss him badly. Now I need to spam my own blog.

Opened my Facebook account, and right on top of the page, I saw him wishing his friend a birthday wish. I was about to be mad, you can post on your friend's wall and not mine?? And then I saw another post, stating he will back from Saigon on Monday. Lagi la bengang, because why didn't he tell me? And don't give me the excuse tak boleh nak contact, sebab bukak FB boleh pulak? Being mad, went to his profile page and saw his current activities; one included writing on his friend's wall :(

Sedih kotttt. So I went to my blog page, and I read my FeedJit, and saw a visitor from Trung, Ninh Binh (did i get that right?). Immediately, my heart leaped. A reader from Vietnam! Hey, I got a reader from Vietnam!! I am so gonna tell him I got a reader from Vietnam! Oh wait-Vietnam? Shit.

Its him. -.- I have a strong feeling it was him, since it was 4 hours 59/58 mins ago, and he logged on FB 5 hours ago. Okay, now I sound like a stalker. Yikes. Sorry bie, its just that I miss you badly, just many things ran through my mind on why you didn't contact me instead of your friends. Sorry sayang. :( Hey, don't think I'll let you off just like that. You need to explain why you're back on Monday not tomorrow.

Hee.

I love you!

Someone slap me.

2010-05-27T22:29:00.002+08:00

Okay, seriously. I need decisions.

Somehow, I rase sayang nak let go of this blog. Know why? Coz when I logged into my WordPress account, I tried putting mu url as my old domain. But they said its taken. Damn. So I think, I might not be moving after all. Like, I'll just mantain two blogs. This one is more to my daily life right? I think my WordPress would be more about perspectives. About what I think of things. I think. One thing for sure, I don't want to delete this one.I'll mantain it.Yeap.

I'm moving! :(

2010-05-24T23:12:00.002+08:00

Well, if you think I'm moving as in my hometown or something,na-ah.

I am actually talking about my blog. I've decided to migrate over to WordPress. No, not because I don't love Blogspot. I do I do, its just that I feel WordPress have better features. Plus, its more professional. And another thing that really made my mind to migrate : I can export all my old posts from Blogspot to WordPress. So this way I wont be losing my old darling dear posts :)

Right now I'm contemplating whether I should use my own name as the url link: www.aimiismail.wordpress.com or use my blogspot domain name which is themaggiesyndrome. Or use a new name altogether.

Hmmmm. So since I can;t figure out about the domain name yet, I can't create a blog at WordPress, I only can sign up. Pathetic I know. Still. Its quite important. One thing if I use my name, it will be easier for in the future. If I use my old domain, it will be easier for my friends to follow. Hmm.

So when I've decided what domain name I will use, I will inform. Unless you peeps have any ideas?

Of Glee

2010-05-21T12:18:00.008+08:00

Glee.

I bet there are so many fans of Glee out there. Even my friends are fans of them. Wait. Fanatics. The first episode they watched and they went crazy. Godd. I could die. Haha. Aisya and Mira even went to the Glee Flash Mob in The Gardens some time ago. The Flash Mob is an event where these Glee fans danced to songs by Glee Cast.

However, it took me weeks to finally watch it. Guess the vibe was kinda slow for me. Hehehe. But, after I did watch it, I still didn't find it THAT exciting. I found myself fast forwarding the scenes. Even stopping halfway and finish up other stuffs rather than to complete it at that time.

Rachel

God, she is the main annoyance. The way she talks, and act and all those. Annoying! Even when she sings, it gets annoying. I had to forward her part, or lower down the volume. Poor my ears.

Puck

He's cool. One of the casts that I am actually okay. He knows what he want, and he is not afraid to do decisions.

Finn

He is sweet, but he has his parts that annoys me. He don't know what he wants, one moment he wants this, another moment he wants that. And seriously, you're that dumb that you don't know how a baby is produced? You're a guy for god's sake, and a quarterback on the football team. You're supposed to know how it happen.

Mr. Schuster

He is nice, he always has a positive thinking about things. Though he always has a tendency to do mistakes in his life.

Sue.

She is amazing! The way she defend herself, never backing down, and the way she blackmail Figgins. And her cynical sinister. Awesome :D

Kurt

He knows what he wants, and he strives to be it. Eventhough he is gay, and things don't go his way, with people mocking him around. He still try to prove that he can make it no matter what he is.

So yeah, at times I find Glee boring, and annoying at times. But the songs can be fun too, minus Rachel's annoying voice. This are just my opinions, it may be biased though.Hmmm.

Its a happy-happy day :)

2010-05-18T23:43:00.004+08:00

So Syidah asked me to accompany her to Parade. She is currently job hunting, as you called it. I told her to be there at 12.30 sharp. We met at 1.30 due to some lateness reasons. -.- Coincidently, Shafiq was there too. Hehehe,so I walked with both of them. I was starving,so we went to RotiBoy. I ate 5 mini croissants! Its small yeah, but still. 5! We chatted and chatted while waiting for Ryan's break at 3pm. And my, both of them were disgusting! While I was eating, Syidah was telling me of birth labor and stuffs,ughhh. And Shafiq was telling me about sunat/circumcised! Full and detailed description. U guys ni -.-

At 3pm, Ryan came with Harith! Ryan works in Celebrity Fitness, Harith at Boost. We accompanied them for lunch, had perverted jokes -.- oh and Syidah applied for her jobs at both places! Hahaha kesian die, terus interview ;p

Meanwhile, Shafiq had to go home early. :(

Sorry bie I showed to you I was mad :(

Later on, me and Syidah went to Boost and drank some of those healthy stuff recommended by Harith. Healthyyyyyy. Hahaha. And we had those banana cake for free. And its healthyyyyy, I could barely taste its sweetness! But its still good ;)

So yeah, pictures from today. Too bad we did not take any pictures with the guys.

Oh and we met Akid and his girlfriend I think? and Taufiq. and Lela! :)

Boost's Banana Slice

Syidah at Boost

Hehehe sorry! had to put this pic up :D

Note Syidah's cat-like face.

Ignore the moving head.

So yeah, I had fun :)

Do you smoke?Hmm.

2010-05-15T09:28:00.002+08:00

I always wonder. Kids nowadays smoke. And believe me, they ARE kids. Like, Standard 4? That is 10 years old? Or there could be younger. In fact, there are somewhere out there. What is so cool about it? Or what is to be pressured about by your friends?

Its like a pattern. As they grow older, its a must to try smoking. Is it cool? Maybe for them it is cool, you know, a ciggie hanging by the end of their hands. Puffing away effortlessly. And mostly boys. It might be fun now. Wait 20 years later. Its a long term effect. See if you think its still cool to die out of smoking.

Die? Did I just say die? Yes. It shortens your life. Risk of you getting lung cancer is higher. You can get heart attacks. Think about your loved ones. Won't they be sad seeing you ill. Yeah, you might be thinking, you've been smoking for a long time. Nothing happens. Yet.

And there is such a thing as second-hand smoke. Its where people around you inhale that air you exhaled from the smoke. They don't smoke, but they have the same diseases as direct smoking. Damn it.

I have a true story to tell. My teacher's dad, he was a heavy smoker. And one day, he fell sick. Doctor diagnosed him with throat cancer. Later on, his condition worsen. There was this hole forming bigger and bigger at his throat. Its hollow. And he couldn't eat. He was tube fed. And he started to threw up. Threw up his little pieces/chunks of his own throat's flesh. It must have hurt badly. His family cried seeing his condition. And he died later, a slow agonizing death. I bet you smokers don't want that to happen right.

They say its a habit. You know the saying, old habits die hard. Then TRY. Put an effort. Push yourself. Its hard yeah, but nobody says its impossible right?

They say they can't. They have habits on smoking. Lepas makan kene smoke. Supposedly dessert? If they have stress, its a must to smoke. Its a way of relaxing themselves, making them think properly. If they need to stay awake, they must smoke. It keeps you awake. Duh of course it does, with all its poisons inside you how can't it not?

Please stop smoking.

Notice I did not say please TRY to stop smoking? Because trying is only an attempt. Its for your own good anyway.

For you and your loved ones.

Tagged by Arishah Zin!

2010-05-12T12:36:00.003+08:00

1.Adakah anda rasa anda hot?
;mungkin :D hahaha perasannye

2.Upload wallpaper PC/laptop yang anda guna sekarang!
;malas.gambar time holiday.

3.Cerita pasal gambar
; kan dah cakap gambar time holiday -.-

4.Bila kali terakhir makan pizza?
; longggg time ago :(

5.Lagu terakhir anda dengar?
; love-matt white

6.Apa yang anda buat selain menyelesaikan tag ini
; makan.lapar! :o

7.Selain nama sendiri, anda dipanggil nama apa?
; maggie,amy, girl.

8.Tag lagi enam orang
; Syidah Rasid
Liyana Adib
Jue Adlin
Alana
Amy
Fanah

9.Siapakah orang no 1 kepada anda
; she is my bestie,my babe.and pretty, and agak bising la -.- hehehe

10.Katakan sesuatu mengenai orang ke 2
; my senior! :) someone in my dorm which i actually can talk with about almost everything.

11.No 5 ada hubungan dengan siapa?
; with all the girls :0

12.Bagaimana pula dengan no 4?
; currently single.

13.Pesanan buat orang no 6
; erm erm bake food for me? :D

14.Kata-kata cinta untuk orang no 2
; hope u and amir last long, till u guys get married, till the end of life :)

15.Adakah no 5 dan no 6 mempunyai persamaan?
; well.nope.just by gender.

16.Berikan 5 yang anda tahu tentang orang yang men-tag anda

Arishah Zin is tall and thin
She likes to eat chicken, pizza, hotdog, and burger. tu main list die.
She is a stalker, BEWARE! ;p
And, she is a flasher. Sangat. Hahahaha ;p
Plus, she is my close friend. I can tell her everything, my problems and all. And we like eating. :D

Never Say Never

2010-05-07T12:22:00.001+08:00

This song holds a lot of memories for me..all its lyrics..its meanings..

The Fray-Never Say Never

Some things we don't talk about
better do without
just hold a smile
we're falling in and out of love
the same damn problem

together all the while
you can never say never
why we don't know when
time and time again
younger now then we were before
don't let me go,
don't let me go,
don't let me go,
don't let me go,
don't let me go,
don't let me go

picture, you're the queen of everything
as far as the eye can see
under your command
i will be your guardian
when all is crumbling
steady your hand

you can never say never
why we don't know when
time and time again
younger now then we were before
don't let me go,
don't let me go,
don't let me go,
don't let me go,
don't let me go,
don't let me go

we're falling apart
and coming together again and again
we're coming apart
but we pull it together
pull it together, together again

don't let me go,
don't let me go,
don't let me go,
don't let me go,
don't let me go,
don't let me go(x2)

Pantai Puteri. Malacca

2010-04-29T19:16:00.005+08:00

I was freaking bored last week. Since my computer class on Monday and Tuesday were cancelled, so on those days I only have one class. What we did was, off to Aisya's crib right after our Monday class. God, we had alot of fun. We watched The Losers in Seremban alongside with Putra and all my other gurls. You know, Aisya, Arishah, Mira. The fun part was, Putra paid for our movies. Hee thanks darling! :)

Then, we ate at Chinese Muslim food nearby, and it was superbly awesome. We ate Siakap Masak Asam, Lemon Chicken, Teppanyaki tofu, and Asparagus. Later, we hung out at Aisya's crib again. Well, for the guys la. Since we girls are staying over. We had loads and loads fun. You see, Aisya has this home made shisha. Its a little teeny small, but it still taste and smell heavenly :)

God we stayed up till 4am. We definitely woke up late. And missed our 9am class. Though after that, Shafiq came with his friends and fetched me to go to Melaka!

We watched movies and stuffs, and went to Pantai Puteri. And here are some of the pictures. Heh sorry I'm kinda lazy to type today, and describe anything.

Me and Khaidir

Me and Shafiq

Khaidir

Zack, Alin, me and Shafiq