Idk.

Please, go away. Wait, come back. No, leave. Please, here. Right in my heart.

I'm afraid. Really, I am.

Botol Air.

Okay. Ada tumblr now.Feel free to visit. Hmm. I joined tumblr cause it makes me hungry always. Damn. www.themaggiesyndrome.tumblr.com

Hunger all around.

Okay. Lapar. Tak tipu. SUPER LAPAR. Haishh. And Maghrib is a few hours away, agonizing how I'm supposed to wait. And I did something I should not do, I stared at food pictures all day -.-

And this was what I ate last night, Ayam Golek Madu. Succulent. Juicy. Sweet. Scrumptious. Finger-licking good.

Then again, later I'm going to the bazaar in UIA. I feel like eating quail eggs suddenly. Mmmm~ yummy. I should sleep or something. No, I should reduce it. Okay, I'll lessen the time. But I'm still sleeping :)

You know who you are.

Today, its the 13th of August. It marks a length of 10 months of us being together, officially. I have to admit, it wasn't easy to keep up with this relationship. We have our ups and our downs. There were times, I feel like giving up. Or there were times, where I just want you to go away. Despite whatever I said, " go away, I can't stand you, leave me alone, I'm getting tired of this,etc" all I wanted was you to don't go away, come here and comfort me, make me feel all warm and needed, tell me you're here for me, because you promised me you'll be there for me no matter what happens. Then again, I can't be selfish and expectant of you. Sometimes I have to lower my bloody ego, just to reach to you. I have to be there for you too.

Only 2 months away, and we'll celebrate a year of us, of you and me. And I hope, more years to come, till the end of life, till the end of everything. I know. I always mess up. I am always the one that start those stupid crappy fights. Am always the one that make a big fuss over your faults. Then again, deep down, I love you. No matter what I said. Or whatever I do. I love you so much. You know who you are.

Puasa Resolutions ;)

Its the second day of Ramadhan. Trust me, I am not complaining. YET. Truth is, I'm having my period. So in Islam, its considered as ladies' off days, where we are not allowed to fast. No, not that exciting. Yeah fun, I could eat whatever I want while others watch with their hungry eyes. I've been doing that actually ;p In fact, I ate a 500ml Nestle ice-cream just now. :D Its quite rude though, we're supposed to respect the others who fast. But I asked them whether they mind or not, and I'll scoot away. But they said its okay, so yeah, its okay :) Then again, I have to ganti puasa later on :(

By the way, I have puasa resolutions! :D

1. Less buying of food.
2. Less eating, especially late at night.
3. Reduce sleeping.
4. Stop buying accesories with reasons of ' for raya'
5. Terawih in the IIUM mosque. At least once!
6. Lessen my temper.
7. And cursings.

Haha okay. Not according to order. Lets see whether I'll make it or not. ;) Happy Ramadhan!

Luck.

On the 7th of August 2010, I went to Syidah's house at around 12 noon. Met her mom and on and on. Went up to her room, and then she told me to pick a bag as a souvenir from her. She had bought all the bags from Vietnam you see. And they were all pretty! Wished I could pick all. Haha. But my pick was a large cream bag, with pink and green swirls :)

Later, Milah fetched us and off to Pyramid! We wanted to watch a movie but the queue was too long, so we've decided to have lunch instead. And Ryan told us that he'll be spending us, since he just got back from Singapore. So yeah, he spent us Nando's :)

A while later, I cut my fringe for RM5. Oh and Daddy gave me money to buy a pair of shoes. And so I did. A pair from Charles&Keith for only RM50! Real bargain, and it was the last pair of my size, on the last day of their sale. After a few hours of hanging out, we decided to go home. Milah gave them all a ride, but hung out with me, Apek, and Meng at Darus in SS15. And Meng told us to have anything we want, all on him :)

God I love them all :)

Oh and the next day, I bought new spectacles and a blouse, courtesy of Daddy :)

Sayang semua orang :)

Only If.

Have you ever feel lost in your own world?

Have you ever felt that nobody understands you?

You want them to understand, but you can't make them.

You want to speak up, but no words came out.

You want to express your feelings, but some thing is holding you back.

Pulling you away.

Making you feel numb.

Maybe its not time?

Or you just can't push yourself forward?

Stuck in between

Your thoughts, their thoughts

Should you care about theirs?

Do theirs really matter?

Or

You only need a push

Away from your contemplates

Away from your doubts

Insecurities

You don't trust you

But hopes other people does

Have believe in me

You say

Only if you trust you

They say

Only if.