making it through.

All I wanted was, everything to fall into place. But I guess it is not my right to make it happen. I could only try. God has His own plans for me, and He make it happen. Not me. I cried last night, thinking my efforts had gone down. My stay ups till early morning, pushing myself over my limits, frequent the library alone.. and I still did not get what I expected. Till someone told me, I lack of rest, not studies, that was why I couldnt make it through. Kept pushing myself again and again, stress and pressure all around. by the time I need what I needed, my brain was already too tired..

sigh. Maybe its true. Maybe I tak ade rezeki. I have come to terms on that. With that, I redha.

Alhamdulillah.