Bye 2010 :D

I am gonna miss 2010. 
It marks the ending of my CFS days, and the beginning of degree.
I had tremendous setbacks, but hey, those setbacks actually helped me in pushing me forward :)
It also marks a year of me and him. The future remains a mystery, but we are making the most of the present times. Hopefully, more happy years to come for both of us, amin :)
Besides that, it serves as a great reminder for me that I have GREAT GREAT friends :D
You guys were with me, through thick and thin, you know who you are, SJ friends and UIA friends. I love all of you, and appreciate those time we had. And hopefully we will have good times together forever and ever sampai ada anak cucu cicit semua :D

It's like we're chasing all those stars

Two days ago, when I was at the brink, a great friend of mine said to me :

I don't believe in BEN, but I believe in you. -the one who's name was always first to be called for attendance, and the owner of CFS matric number that everyone remembers

Either Or

I don't know whether I am being a pervert or just an open-minded person. Really, my lecturers sometimes are unthinkable. For instance, my poetry lecturer was saying that different words bring different impacts. As an example, payudara and buah dada. She said that for her, payudara sounds scientific. While buah dada sounds manis, because it is buah -.- I laughed too loud at that moment. 


Oh and another word from my Writing, anjakan paradigma. Oh crap. Me and my friend laughed to that word. Only the two of us. When I realised that, I immediately shut my mouth and put on a straight face.  Maluuuu. I wonder if the lecturers compare notes, and they were like "ehh same la budak yang gelak" -.-


An interesting incident that happened to me today:
I told my Writing lecturer that I will be a few minutes late for his class each time due to my earlier class is situated in IRK, and it doesn't help that that class always ends later than it should. So he was like, okay give me your name. "Aimi bt Ismail." No I mean your full name. "Aimi bt Ismail". *Stares at me for a moment with that weird look * Okay my name satu je pelik ke. -.-


By the way, it just hit me. I am doing my degree. Degree in a university. I better work my ass off, for my future. No more CFS thinking. 

Lost in UIA

Memang tak sah if I am not lost. 


Seriously, I had to leave my room at least half an hour earlier, so that I won't be late to class. 


Well, for my first day, I went to class, and managed to find it. But it was canceled. So was the next class. Yeay!


But today,woah. Listen. For my Writing class, Sir Mazlan was very entertaining. Very sporting and kinda cool, really how a BEN lecturer should be. One that speaks good English with an open-minded attitude. 


But what happened next was horror. We had a class in IRK, after what took us such long time to find the class, we were told it was 3rd year students, so we were given the "opportunity" to get out. 


And then for the afternoon class, crap. We were lost. Completely lost. It doesn't help it was located at the 3rd floor, so we were basically going up to the 3rd floor, and then back and fro to all the crooks and corners. I think we went to all corners. And then we went down again, and went up another stairs to the 3rd floor again, and search all corners, even sesat dalam offices and don't ask me how I even got there. And someone wrote stupid directions that lead us to stupid stairs and stupid nowhere.And then we went down again, used ANOTHER stairs and up to 3rd floor AGAIN, and searched everywhere, and then-we found it!! 


But, it was locked. 


It was empty.


No class today.


And we searched for more than half an hour for it.


Its freaking locked.


I swear if I weren't with my friends, I would break down. 


Even when I called Arishah my voice was cracking.


Sedihhhh :'(

Taaruf in Gombak

Taaruf in Gombak. 

Totally mentally exhausting. Talks and briefing, blablabla. You could at least give us breaks. Well, sleeping was definitely fun throughout it. Bangun je, dah habis. Yeay.

Okay, I don't feel like telling what taaruf in Gombak was all about. Enough to say, I got a 4 to a room, I'm the only junior, and yes. 5th floor. 

konon muke semangat nak dengar talk.

with Dayang and Alya

mata steam bak kate syidah -.-

Alia Fada and Otong

L-R; Sarah, Shamin, Pika

Alia Fada, mase ni bergelar sudah IIUM Student

Mummy Faat :)

My compartment is on the left.

They even have drawers under the bed, ala-ala IKEA

Study table with bookshelf and drawers. Relatively new.

View from my room. Oh and I can see the sunset too :)

Okay, that's all for now. Tomorrow, a fresh new start. Hope everything goes well. Amin..

Childhood TV

Currently on FB, there's this thing going on about putting a picture of cartoon from your childhood as a sign to fight against child abuse.
I was torn. I suddenly realised that my childhood consisted of a lot of cartoons. And there were shows too.


So here's a list of them, of whatever I still remember of:

The Addams Family

Sonic the Hedgehog

Felix the Cat

Pinky and The Brain

Dragonball

Dexter's Labaratory

I am Weasel. Oh and his friend is I R Baboon.

Cow and Chicken

Peanuts. The dog's name is Snoopy I think.

Little Lulu

Catdog

PowerPuff Girls

Many more I remember still. Ed, Edd and Eddy, Doraemon, Ogy and The Cockroaches, Courage the Cowardly Dog, Johnny Bravo, etc.


And some shows:

The Amanda Show

All That

Lizzie McGuire

That's So Raven

Yeah, I miss childhood.

45 minutes, really

After a few months rotting at home and adding fats, the evening sky was finally clear for me to be a little productive. 
Its time for cycling. 
To tell you the truth, I haven't cycled for years. And years means 5 years and above. That long. Too long in such a way that I forgot how to cycle -.-
Then again, even when I was a child, I couldn't cycle well. I was quite slow at it, I used the bicycle with extra 2 little wheels on both sides, until I was about 6 or 7 years old. So, yesterday I struggled a bit. At first I couldn't mantain my balance, and then I discovered I suck at doing circles T.T
Woah, the first 10mins definitely was a killer. We decided to go up a hill, and my legs were cramping (probably kaki dah keras). And it was such a big and stoopy hill (or that's what my mind told me). After that, then everything was pleasant. The breeze was cool and blowing nicely, and we made 2 rounds around neighbourhood. 
Oh oh and I can do circles already :D
Definitely want to this activity again :)
Now I feel productive.

the brother

the sister

I don't like you

Everyone has their own dreams and fantasy. Everyone wants luxury. Or like I have always said, " Semua orang ada cita-cita dan angan-angan"/ " Semua orang ada impian masing-masing". But what if, those wants turn into urgent needs, and take away their dignity along.

Being a 19 years old girl, obviously I am influenced by the media promoting brands that cost a lifetime of savings, probably. But I have to stick to a budget. I admit, I do have an easy lifestyle, but hey, I probably won't have them if its not to my parents. I'm lucky enough that my parents can afford. That doesn't mean I get everything and anything that I want. I am given a fixed allowance, and if I want to buy some stuffs, or my money ran out, I need to work around that budget. That doesn't mean I get extra cash. Its tough, but I know this will teach me the value of money, and money doesn't grow on trees. 


No, am not being boastful and proud. The point is, people need to know their budget and stick to that. Some people are less fortunate, but hey, didn't they survived? The money spent on this kind of stuff, can buy them a whole lot more essentials. 

I just don't understand why some people need to show that they are better than other people. That they need to show that they also can afford like other people. So what if other people go to dinners with expensive dresses. You just get according to your budget, not trying to show to other people. And frankly, if you are borrowing other people's stuff (branded, and you were the one that requested for it) well, that doesn't make you look better, it makes you look like a fool.


And I don't understand people who brag. Why on earth are you doing that? Really, probably the person you are talking to is wealthier, only he is humble. And that definitely give him more points. And he is probably thinking what crap are you babbling. And that is embarrassing. To me, people who brag, are people who are afraid that other people don't see it. 
Inferiority.

Megamind

Today, after waking up around like, what, 11am for breakfast? We decided to watch a movie at CineLeisure. And man, that place was super-packed! What, all these people decided to go to CineLeisure at one go, along with us? :/

We were basically torn, either MegaMind or Rapunzel. I badly want to watch Rapunzel, because...she looks pretty -.-

Rapunzel Rapunzel, let down your hair

But the seats were full. All that's left: front seats. I mean, who ever want those seats? They're too upfront, and your neck will strain. I think my eyes will strain too, from watching on such a near screen.

So yeah, instead on that, we watched MegaMind.

And I am glad we watched that. Its funny and relaxing. And family-friendly too. :) 

Oh and the lady was voiced over by Tina Fey :)

Its kinda cute too. And I laughed and "Aww" along the whole movie. And its very entertaining. In short, you should go watch it aite ;)

Anyway, I've been planning for a jog. But the evenings always rain, why oh why, how am I gonna be fit this way :( 

Moving on

There you have it. The offer letter finally arrived. Online obviously, but it arrived! I was so hyped. I was told that I am gonna get mine on the 26th of Nov, but that was just for the repeaters. I am now a clear pass student. 


A BEN student. 


No longer an ECONS student. Yeap, I've changed course. Its for the best, and I really hope it is my call. So, wish me luck ey? :)


Now that CFS is over alhamdulillah, I am starting to reminisce the old times. Gets teary when I think about it, because those times were meaningful. And in Gombak, those moments will be more treasured as we will be further apart.


I remember me and my friends, we were classmates for like, a complete year? Classmates for almost every single class. Imagine. Such that we know, the name list according to order. We know each other's full names. We know matric numbers. ( Kinda pesky if we need to know CAM, since lecturers only list down matric number and CAM, but since we know each others anyway,no point of confidentiality -.- ) We know when is the right exact time to raise our hands for the name. We text each other for homeworks, we planned to cancel class together. We made the class to be canceled together. We cover for each other. We cheat with each other during quizzes. 


Best of all? We have each other. And it feels great that, after I changed my course, they are supportive, and they even suggest meet ups when in Gombak, just so that the friendship we have won't fall apart. Thanks you guys :)

All nighter

Still an all nighter

Ice skate, among the best times :)

End of sem 1, 2010/2011

There's always a first.

For the first time ever, I celebrated Aidil Adha without my parents. Or my sister and brother-in-law. You see, my parents are currently performing pilgrimage. And my sister was working on that day. So the night before Aidil Adha, my brother and I went to our kampung in Malacca, with our extended family. 


And for the first time in my life, I did not eat any slaughtered meat. 


And instead I spend my Aidil Adha by:

1) I squeezed freshly shredded coconut with water, then it will produce coconut milk. Again and again. You know  those hand flexor thingy? Well I think I don't need to use that. Ever.

2) I was busy playing with animals. Really. There was this chicken lying on the ground, and I thought it was "relaxing". Turned out it was dying, "embracing" its final moments. Later that evening, it died. I swear I didn't do anything, all I did was talk to it. " Kenapa kau baring kat sini, pergila main-main macam ayam lain, eh kau, dengar tak,tido je keja" :/ Oh and yeah, there were turkeys, geese, many many flies, and yes, cats.

Comel kannn. The one where you can see its face is Tabby. The one which is that orange furball is Muffin. I gave that orange furball's name :D And they are only a week old. And Persian cats too! 


3) Played some IQ blocks. I hate that thing. You are suppose to arrange that wooden blocks to form a shape according to the diagram given.

Something similar. 


So yeah, that's how I spend my Aidil Adha 2010.
Oh and btw, I didn't even wear my baju kurung. Not the first time.

Letih

Today I went out with my family. With my brother of 21 years old my cousin of 25 years old, her sister (my cousin too) of 14 years old, and my aunty. So yeah, all girls and a guy. Haha. Well, initially we planned to go along with my sister and her hubbie, but due to some complications they couldn't join us.
So yeah, my cousin drove to our house and reached around 1.30 pm.
We reached One Utama around 2 pm. And man, its super-packed! But we managed to get a parking lot, and seats at Pizza Hut. Ordered Royal Masala, and Hawaiian Chicken. And 2 Seafood Marinara(s). I always love eating my pizzas with loads of cheese powder, and today was no different. Mak Ngah saw and she tried, and well. She ate all her pizzas with heaps of cheese powder then :D
Then we went to UBowl. God I suck at bowling! Yang ada bola 8 paling ringan, 6 ngan 7 gone. And half of my score were dashes because it went down the drain. God I suck. Real bad. But altogether it was fun. 

Nana bought Clark's shoes. And Mak Ngah did too. I pick them both :D
Oh we met Busu! And Alyssa. And we ate Baskin's together. I had Jr. Double scoops :D 
We had dinner at Boomtown, Usj 11. Had char kuey teow besar taknak sayur, ayam madu teruna, otak-otak satu bakul, and yes, sirap limau all time fav :)
Then, next stop. HOME!
Reached around 10.30pm.
Crazy tiring long day, but fun. 
And money flowed out like water.

Non-productive

I'm feeling useless. I'm not doing anything productive. Really, I did none since my parents went away for hajj. Well yeah, I did chores. Washing the clothes and folding them, cleaning the dishes and so on. But those are plain basics. Those are the things that I've always done all this while.

Maybe I should cook. But I had problems.

Problem No.1:

I planned on doing S'mores. I've bought the digestive cookies and the marshmallows. But the marshmallows had this "Eat me! Eat me!" screams, and I've obliged. Haha :D

Problem No.2:

Wanted to make brownies, but there's only cooking chocolate and butter, but there's no chocolate chips.

Problem No.3:

Wanted to do cake, but I have no cream. Wanted to do cookies, but finds it tiring. Wanted to do muffins, but I'm stuck at Problem No.2, no chocolate chips.

Shucks.

Lovely, aren't they? Made them for last Raya :)

Child

My heart goes out to all those broken families. It is sad, to see the family that you build, go haywire and tangled up, and then broken and lost. And its much worse, to see their kids. Sometimes, as they are young, they don't understand what's going around. But some, they grow up older than their age because of this.

Recently, a family came by my house. A pair of grandparents and their granddaughter about the age of 7. The little girl's parents are currently divorced. The father had left them, and the mother had to work somewhere else to support herself and her little daughter. Hence, the daughter is under the care of her grandparents.

The girl was at first soft, and then she turned hyper. She faked a big laugh almost every 5 minutes so that people will notice her. And she did naughty things too, though she is not naughty. Because when I commented on her behaviour, she relented immediately. She only wants attention.

After a while, I asked where is her mom, and she responded " Tu kat depan tu, mak saya tua kan" referring to her grandma. And when I asked where is her dad, she responded " Ayah kat depan, ayah tua jugak kan". I was shocked. She referred them as her parents, and not her grandparents. that shows how broken is the home.

We chatted for awhile, when I suddenly asked her where is she from, and she said " Tempat jauh. Lame pulak tu nak sampai. Dalam kereta ade 2 bantal je, tapi xde selimut. Sejuk". I then responded, why don't you cuddle to your grandma? Because we all know, that human can provide a soothing warmth. Her answer really shocked me, she said " Mak tak suke saya peluk. Mak pernah cakap jangan peluk dia".

Its sad really, for her. Maybe her grandma refused to do so, as she resembled her father. Then again, she is only a child. An innocent child. :(

I used to have this when I was young. Its a Cabbage Patch doll. I called her Judy. I missed my childhood. And sometimes, I realised. That sometimes I act childish, because I want to re-connect with my childhood. I wish I could correct some. But everything's done. And I threw her away.

It Never Ends

Its been awhile, really. Its been awhile that I've been sick. Back at Nilai, I'm known for being fragile and weak. During taaruf, I fell and my left foot started to swell. And down with high fever. Skipped some taaruf activities, and then it got too swelled up, and I end up at the hospital -.-

Then the first few weeks of class, I had to limp my way to class. Even got stopped by the 'mak guards' and lecturers. And boy, that's how probably half of the CFS knows me, " perempuan yang kaki bengkak tu". Aish.

After that, I went down with severe food poisoning due to the spicy foods. Skipped a few classes with that reason. Since then, I was a regular patient at the clinic. There was even this one time, I had this terrible period pain, but I need an MC to not go to class. I walked very slowly, or shall I say, excruciatingly to the clinic. Got my meds, got my MC. And then the unexpected- I'm allergic to the meds. It made my eyes swollen, that I had to squint to see. And yes, a long way back to the clinic for the cure.

So anyway, last Mon I was down with flu. But I hold on to it. By the next day, I was down with fever as well. It lasted for two days. I'm okay now, but I still have the remains of flu. Oh, and a new cough virus caught up with me. I know, I know. Fragile. -.-

Past Halloween

HAPPY HALLOWEEN!

Now I don't celebrate them. I don't remember being invited to one for few years. Though I still get excited to look at the decorations :D

Back then in my childhood days, my friends were mostly non-muslim. Even if they are, they were the open-minded kinds. I remember there was this one year, my friend organized a Halloween party. Being a child, and dressing up seemed exciting, I pleaded my Mum to send me to the party. I went there as a cowgirl. Haha. Well, almost. I had this retro pink blouse with colourful frays at the cuffs, and a pair of bell bottoms. Oh, and I had no hat -.-

There were many other girls who really showed their effort. They wore tutu skirts, with handmade wings ( out of cardboards) attached to their shoulders, and even made wands with a huge glittery star at the end.

But in the end, I won the best outfit. The judge? My bestfriend ;)

Haha okay biased. Then again, kids are biased. I think. So as a gift for my costume, I received a pink glass bracelet made of glass beads, and a box of chocolates. And I still keep the bracelet :D

Weak.

Everyone has their own strength. From what I've know (and experienced), I don't have much. I rely on other people. When something bad happens, when an obstacle turns up, I seek other people. For their strength. And comfort. I've always thought I am an optimistic. Filled with positivity. Well, I do, but at times that I really should, I don't.

I always though that I am a happy and bubbly person. But when I fail to do something, I fall. Hard.Maybe its normal. Its just that I am not accepting it. Still in denial. Hoping that if I didn't say out loud, it won't come true. Or at least I thought so.

Then again, from these things we rise. It takes time, but hey, if it isn't hard, nobody hates failure anymore.

But I still do.